How Lovely is He

To avoid doing or saying thing I regret, I must remind myself how good is he - KB.


He is patient
He patiently without complain fetching me from east to west, north to south as long as I ask him to.
He wont say no when I ask him to fetch my aunt home when she has no transport to church and back home.
He even dont mind shopping with me (or even with my sis and mum) for hours if I'm looking for something


He is willing to spend for the sake of love
He is stingy sometime, just because he save the money for our future (of course, never deny that it's for his favorite stuff too)
If he is not stingy to save the money, he wont be able to buy a house for both of us, and I only have to pay the cukai tanah =p
He bought cheap and pricey stuff that I like

He got a thick face
He never stop saying "I love you" or some sweet word thou he is not good at that


He is loving
I'm pretty, cute and sexy to him most of the time, not because how I dress up, but it's how much he loves me even thou I wear shorts n t shirt and talk like guy.
He tries his best spending time with me, he always tell me he may not have enough time for me whenever he has to rush for job, but most of the time, he is able to see me atleast a dinner time.

I always complain about him, always bother what he does cuz worry about how people think of us or him, however, 
"Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things." Philippians 4:8

Proposal/Christmas Gift

Long time never blog, password almost forgotten some more.

I've got a very big gift from KB, instead of showing it in FB which is what people are doing now days, I rather blog it here.

Sigma lense 17-70mm
2.8-4.0

Me and KB went for recce for pre wedding shoot place at KL today. Before that, he told me he wants to go to a special place, i was thinking may be some special place for recce which i dont know, or he wants to propose to me in this "special place"?? ha! i think to much, impossible.. said in my heart.
after we went to bank and withdrew our money, he drove to this very old shopping mall at KL which until now i still dont know what it's called, i only know that YL (famous camera trading shop) is inside this shopping mall.
KB: "familiar with this place?"
me: "mm.. YL is here isnt it?"
then he smile. and said wanna buy lense for me, which is the one i aiming to buy years later. i was kinda surprise of what he planned to do because i just told him a week ago and i really didnt expect him to buy, cause it's too expensive. he said this will be my wedding gift kah, christmas gift kah and birthday gift. ah~ to me, whatever.. i just love the gift. =)
day before i even asked him, what he did that is showing love towards me,he seems answering me crap, i knew, he dont know how to answer me, he just can't express well.. well, for me to find out i guess.. =) <3

During Valentine's Celebration

when me n kb heading for our valentine's dinner at Garden, i saw my former college mate.. as usual, after greeting, we shall introduce the one beside us.. unexpectedly, when i intro kb to my college mate, i paused for about 5 secs.. cuz i forgotten kb's name.. =p

dinner at Alexis, Garden, the food there so so only, no variety..=/

i was wearing tis new dress from zara, quite sexy huh? =p then only i realize tis is "too sexy" for malaysian, many ppl was looking at me, i wonder is tis too sexy or kua jiong, to me, it's normal lo..

when i touch up this pic, this objest seems so rite to end our celebration

*he said, there's no gal wearing such way for him b4.. aww~~ <3

Though of the Day 5

如果你是说真的话你一定是很难过和生气. 不管你是说真的还是假的，只要我说出来我们的感情就会受到影响，所以现在闹成这样,不是因为你是说真的还是假，而是我把心底话说出来。我就是这样，时常忍不住气，非要说出口不可. 我其实很想你向我解释清楚，说多一点也不难吧，如果是真的话，那不要让我误会你啊。因为你的理由真的很难另人相信。

First Year

First year instead of 1 year anniversary, cuz i'm expecting my long run wit him.. before 14Jan, i was planning and preparing valentine's day offer for my online boutique, then i was thinking y not i do something for him for our special day oso, so wrote him a so-called "love letter"

4 pieces in sequence, last one written with my feeling toward him all this while.. aww~~ so sweet.. =p

wrapped in a box, then put inside plastic bag, in case it get dust after long time, then putting in a small paper bag and gave him.. (long gas~)

may be i should upload my "love letter" later? >_< then tis post is gonna be goose bump post..

these are the posts about us:

1. A post that started our conversation after our first met:
    New Babe
2. Started to have the feeling on him:
    Truth Waited To Be Told
3. After Confession and wait for the right time:
    等
    Back To Home , Not Alone
    Keeping A Distance
    等 之 没有承诺的承诺
    Mixture Feeling
    等 之 Sometimes
4. Fulfilling my promise of making sushi for him:
    Sushi Queen
5. Struggling:
    take up the courage.. to make a mistake?
6. Still waiting:
    等 之 那一天
7. The day has come:
    N/A

ofcuz there are more post after we started our relationship. as conclusion, i'm glad and blessed that i have him wit me. =)

A Day Trip with Monkey

tis is the day which me n monkey long waited for, we nvr really spend a day together for some vacation, either wit frens or just a while spending together at home or shopping/movie.. so we decided to take a leave on july but ended up only me taking leave bcuz he is now holiday, waiting for new job..

on the way..

we went to KLCC Aquarium, mm.. not really impressive, cuz not many variety fishes nor any underwater species and a very small "underwater world", which can finish seeing it within half an hour, but we spent more than tat, cuz we kept taking pictures of those fishes with my dslr..

the aquarium and underwater world

the shark and the shark egg (yee~~)

the huge fish (dunno wat is it called) and the nemo and the weirdo

we just spent 2hr++ in klcc, then we headed to sg wang cuz monkey wanna see robot then we went to pavillion The Loaf which is my fav hang out place cuz i like the uhu uhu (not sure if it's called) there..

last hang out place was not wat i expected, which is church.. i didn plan to go to prayer meeting, cuz i tot it wil b very rush for us, n honestly i wanna skip prayer meeting (only tis week) to spend my whole day wit him.. =p we manage to go home at around 6pm so monkey said we shld go since we got time, we shldn skip, i was like.... err.. ok lo.. he said tis is wat i said b4, "we shldn skip prayer meeting" i was thinking, "skip tis week only mer..." anyway, i respect and admire wat was in his mind..

at old town kopitiam..

* we stil continue hang out together after prayer meeting, we went yam cha nearby my hse

** i really enjoyed being wit him..

How To Choose Life

some interesting article found in fb...

How To Choose Life

Choosing the person you will marry is just that- a choice. Some men and women feel they were swept off their feet by a rush of romantic love, true. But beneath all the emotions and all the thrills of knowing someone is crazy about you, there is still your will to decide. This section of our series, Choosing For Life, will help you make a wise decision, not just an emotional one. (read more..)

and btw, today is my half year togetherness wit monkey, time pass really fast, but "half year" stil sound short to me, we seems like being together for very long, is tat good or bad? mm... i stil enjoyed being together wit him, ppl tend to say couple is only sweet for first 3 months, for us, we had argument, but at the same time we knew each other more, and we still appreciate each other.. there's no "3 months period" in tis relationship..

Blogged Too Much??

due to my "freeness", not to say where, cuz is in office *whispering* nor shld i say wat i usually do when i'm free, cuz i'm suppose to b working *whispering* i check out ppl's blog, fren's blog and fren's fren's blog.. (1 of d things i do).. purpose of blogging is to let ppl read and know wat u r doing and ur current condition or watever, so i think i'm alrite to check out (kepohchi) other's blog.. =p

mostly ppl write where they went, n wat they did, telling ppl how happening is their life, (so do i..=p), but some type of blogging i have read is kinda capture my curiosity which is their relationship, they tend to write how much they love their bf/gf, wat have they been thru, so on and so forth (SO DO I..>=p but not as much as them for some reason), bcuz of my curiosity, i'm kinda updated wit tis ppl relationship, i wonder wat if they broke up, how r they going to manage their blog especially if they found new gf/bf?? do they need to delete all the previous posts bout their ex?? or open new acc??

in fact, there's a guy used to write so much bout he n his gf, they seriously committed to each other, about how is their life b4 and after meeting each other.. but now, they broke up, n now he has new gf, with "new topic".. hmm.. do we have to b so committed to a relationship or do we have to b so committed blogging bout our relationship?

for me, i'm not sure if i'll b wit him in future (forever), althou i really hope so but we do not know how is our future, i hope i can write bout the same person today, tmr and the rest of my days..

is him, (first pic of him which taken by me.. )

~kenny leong the monkey~

n now, he has new nic from me, which is...

=>>> KENNY BEAR

kakakaka!!!! 

* those frens who blog pls dun block nor avoid me, i'll only check out blog when i'm free, i dun purposely check out ppl's blog.. =p

** i wonder shld i let many ppl know my blog, i didn intended to let ppl know bout me when i started my blog since.... long long time ago in an "hidden place" cuz my purpose of blogging tat time was just to express out my thought..

3 Months

3 months dy, how come sounds like very short n i feel it's been long time dy..?? how i wish we have been together very long dy..

i like the way he calls me, especially "sweet honey pie", (it may sounds goose bump =p) i nvr heard such nic b4, so sweet.. how u call a person shows wat is the position of tat person in ur heart..

i like to argue wit him (anyway, to me, tat's not considered as argument, is sort like merajuk), may b tat time is the moment we express out our heart out deeply, is tis considered childish? watever, may b.. =p

i have so much "wants" from him, everytime when i didn get wat i want, i'll b very upset, all the while i tot i'm a mature person, but when come to relationship, i have a hot temper to manage it.. 

oh~ 3 months... only..

* anyway, monkey i love u..

7thMarch - 1 year

7th March, i've known u for 1 year, time past very fast, nvr expect i'll get together wit u, u've been so sweet n loving to me, u making me miss u everyday.. keke.. how i wish i can spend the rest of my life wit u but who knows the future.. i love u my sweetheart~ *hugz* *muakz*

Not Yet Crazy

i lost my bracelet which given by my monkey as my valentine's gift, not very sad but felt disappointed tat i've lost it, it drop without realizing it.. he wasn't angry but he seems kinda upset..

so i purposely went to one utama after work, try to look for same one without letting him know, after 1hr++, i cant find it, so i guess the bracelet sold out cuz roughly i know where he bought from.. i was thinking m i crazy for tis lost bracelet? mm.. i think not really, i know where he buy tat's y i wana have a try..

i was yearning to buy the same bracelet, not only bcuz it's valentine's gift from him, is oso bcuz i feel loved/attached to him when i wear something from him.. anyway, he said he is gonna buy me a new one.. *whispering* keke..

14/2 & 15/2

14 feb is valentine's day n oso our 1 month togetherness (sounds sweet~~), but we didn celebrate it on tat day, we make it on sunday cuz we plan to go to church,but the young adult meeting cancelled due to many ppl celebrating their big day, even the singles.. (i wonder y ppl r so into the v-mood tis year)..

anyway, we didn change our date, we stil do it on sunday, so on saturday, we went to klcc shopping, teman him buy camera then lepak at his house..


the best thing was we went to pasar malam, we bought a lot food and enjoy it in his house while watching dvd, tis is how we "pre celebrate" our valentine


it was very romantic n sweet to me thou, get together, appreciate each other, the time seems like only for both of us..

i was thinking if tmr (next day) wil b romantic as we celebrate our 1st valentine, or just another dinner time, as usual, nothing special, since every time we meet up is oso our valentine's day.. ^^ anyway, i didn expect too much, (or dare not), just hope tat we wil have a great time, everything wil b smooth..

the next day, we went to Michaelangelo, Mont Kiara (thanks to my sis who recommended tis) for our dinner, nice place thou..

while waiting for the food, he's playing wit his new toy (ish! jealousnya)

i oso wanna shoot, wit my tiny babe, at him.. err.. he thinks he is fierce.. watever~

a sweet gal wit a fierce looking monkey... wakakakka!!!

food not bad, but not many choices..

the dinner was sweet, not many ppl, nice environment, i was dy satisfied wit the dinner..

i told him i wanna receive flower from him (i dun care jaga face or not, i just tell him =p), not bcuz i love flower, i feel it's an expression of love, i wish i can receive it from him once in my life but not on valentine's day cuz is super expensive which is not worth it..

out of his love.. (i blif so)

i stil received surprise tat been suspected, my fav flower - lily from him

thanks! my dear, u have made my day, given me a memorable valentine.. =) *muakz* i love u..

"Our Time is Our Life" Rick Warren

christmas n cny has finally over, tis 2 seasons have the most atmosphere, especially tis year cny, it's so much diff to me, all the while, i've been spending my time wit my family n fren during cny, but tis year, one special person has added in my life, which so much so tat i'll put effort to spend time wit..

b4 i went to Hanoi for my family vacation, i did shopping wit him, err... was not shopping but crazy shopping! went to Pyramid, One u, and The Curve all in 1 day on 2nd day of cny (初二), >_< bcuz he was looking for his robot (cant rmb have we been to mid valley as well); and then went to Time Square on the 3rd day of cny (初三), lepak at his house and had dinner there (mm.. felt kinda shy having dinner wit his mum, cuz first time.. =p)

obviously, life order now has changed, time management skill is required, i mean for my free time: time after work, time after church and public holiday.. how am i gonna allocate my time for my family, fren n him, and not forget, for my God.. i'm not only someone's gf, but i'm oso someone's daughter, someone's sis, someone's fren.. thus the balance point must set correctly..

During the Hanoi trip, my sis asked me (sounded a bit worry), how wil be the family trip arranged if i married, i stay wit my husband in a room or wit her in a room?? mm.. kinda tricky question, i nvr tot of such a problem in vice versa, instead, i'll b more enjoyed? cuz one more person added in a trip.. or may b i know my sis sure wil stil take care of me well as how she taking care of me when she is not married, tat's y i'm not worries.. i think the problem here is not about wat wil happen when i get married while she is single, is about how i get along wit both of them at a same time without leaving one of them out..

anyway, i really appreciate for my family n my dear, cuz they understand my situation at whom i wanna spend time wit, they nvr fight wit each other for my time.. (so far......)

N/A

-=: 14th Jan 2009 :=-

used to be one....
used to be mind emptied....
looked around....
skipped around....

when love found

learn to trust....
learn to share....
chose to be loved....
chose to be committed....

chose to be not available

Wat Makes A Blogger Dun Blog

quite some time didn blog, not bcuz nothing happen, but is bcuz too many things happen.. i think.. dunno how to write and may b... mm... lots of things r hidden, cant expose.. oops! *ahem*
since now i'm awake >_< size="4">cant sleep on sunday! i've been thinking everything tat happen in tis week again and again, repeat after another.. until now i'm sitting infront of my pc.. -_-
after i receive a msg last fri while i was driving..
"y??!!" i shouted in the car,
"God has been sooo good to me, He is good, He loves me, i love Him too... " then "waterfall" on my face (funny huh, in fact, it's just a normal msg from a fren)
tis msg reminded me tat either there's nothing happen, i'm thinking too much, or it's real, and i have to make a decision at the end of a day. in order to obey God, i'm only allowed to choose "no" UNLESS miracle take place.
i hate making tis kinda of decision, facing tis kinda trial, i rather straight away get wat i wan without struggling..

Grace is....

Grace just back from work..

Grace is hungry..

Grace was frustrated over her job, she thinks she didn do well, n now trying her very best.. anyhow she is grateful that having colleague tat ready to help..

Grace is having gastric on and off since last sat, may b she making herself too stress..

Grace hates Media Composer, cuz it's stupid and arrogant to her, it slow down her computer, slow down her work, nearly mess up her job, she miss Express Pro~

Grace was touched by God when she was driving back home, she knows that no matter how, God is stil care for her..

Grace is missing someone, someone that shared her interest and her little things in life, but not faith in Christ, sigh~

Grace wish tat she no need to prepare sharing for tis coming sat, cuz she doesn know how to prepare for tis week - TOL (Think Out Loud), discussing current issue..

* there is a feature in Facebook, writing ur status, (e.g. Grace is "at work"), so instead of writing my status there, and either ppl dun understand or think that i show off or mouliu or watever... so i blast it out here..

Perfect Dress

some "thing" has really disturbing me quite some time, especially after i read someone's blog..

here's the illustration,

i found tis dress years ago, it's nice and elegant, i would say it meet some of my dream dress requirement. so one day, my frens wanna buy me tis dress, u know how i responded?
"no, i dun wan tis dress thou i like it.. mm.. but may b in future.. who knows.." i said (cuz i know i might change my mind when i'm ready, tat's y i said "may b in future")
my frens look at me, "wat kinda answer is tat?"
i just smile at them =)
"i like another dress which is very special and unique thou i know i'm not gonna get it cuz it doesn fit me at all, so is unfair that i just simply accept tis dress that offered by my fren where i wasn't ready for tis nice n elegant dress." whispered in my heart

2 years later, i saw tis dress' photo, i asked myself,
"y didn i just accept tis dress when my frens wanna buy me tis dress, isn't tis wat i wan?" wat a stupid question.
i almost wanna buy a dress which is similiar to tis dress but it doesn fit me until i saw tis dress' photo.
as time goes by, tailor has made tis dress even more charming, and he knows who can fit tis dress. it's stil available, and it's desperately looking for an owner which will absolutely fit it, when i know it's looking for an owner, i wish i could just grap it n say to the dress how much i like it, n how i wish i could own it. BUT i know even if i afford to buy it (after some saving), the dress may not accept me or tailor may say
"i've made u another perfect dress.."

My Baby

There was a time,
a cute little baby was born in a hurry,
there was no wonderful place to welcome this baby,
but a bright shining star in the east was stop and welcome him.

Many people do not know why this baby was born,
as christmas tree, christmas gift, christmas dinner replacing the meaning of christmas,
but this cute little baby knows that christmas is his first day on earth for the world.

During christmas,
are we counting how many gift we have,or we are counting how many people we have brought them to Christ Jesus.
He is a cutiest baby i've ever met,he was smiling,not because he has bright future,but we have bright future because of him.

Your Initial Love

Let everything that I do is an act that showing out my love towards You.
For You first chose to love me;
Let me sing out a love song from my heart,
For You know what my heart says.
Why everything You’ve done is for me?
Even thou I did not realize sometimes;
Sorry, for I do not know how to write a love song for You,
As You chose to died on the cross for me.
My heart is been captured again when You said I belong to You.
Dear Jesus,
You are my goal to live,
A comforter of my soul,
Never, You never leave me.

Letting Go

Playing with the music seems nothing
after knowing you, it expresses out my feeling
Walking with you is imposssible
but will appreciate the moment we spent together
Not at your side i don't mind
but willingly at your behind
Looking at your shadow
so wish to know where you wanna go
As you go toward your future
you will always in my prayer