So Deep In Me

when u leave, I couldn't sleep

Thinking so deep, when will we meet?

So much you are the one i miss..

mm.. tis is wat i posted on kb's facebook, it took so much courage to post tis "bulu naik" so-called poem.. all bcuz i'm so appreciate the time he spent wit me out of his bz working schedule, he dun even have enuf sleep..

A Date

i'm so 幸福 tat i no need to drive to office yest, monkey fetch me, cuz we going out for date at nite (as usual), i dun wanna drive back home so late after date, so we decided he fetch me to office, it was a lovely morning i had..

the lovely moment is not end yet, at nite we had dinner and shopping at one u, we joke, we tease at each other, even we got nothing to say, but the moment is so sweet n short, n out of no reason or may b there is but we dunno, we miss each other a lot..

when we on our way back, his tire punctured, actually was more than punctured, it's cracked at the side (not sure if it's the rite word), it's spoiled badly.. so we stopped n changed the tire, we didn panic, we figure out how those tools work, thank God there was a taxi driver passby n help us to use the tool, within 1/2 hr, we changed the tire.. mm.. i was proud of myself cuz i help changing tire, i didn stand there, as wat a gal shld do? i did help n we work things together.. i think tis is considered sweet moment.. (romantic as well? yeah rite, just the beginning, i cant imagine if tis happen a lot, i'll stil think is romantic..=p)

n i did admire him cuz he didn show temper nor angry nor something, everything happen calmly.. =)

after tat, we went back to his hse n spent the rest of the time together, n tis was our date yest, to me, it's sweet n memorable..

i seen you under the bright sky

leave ur smell on me until i see you tonight

a kiss of us not to say goodbye

but a promise of returning back to your side

* i love you baby monkey..

Loco

~-=*:::LOCO:::*=-~
"2Feb2009" - 21Feb2009

i love to see when you eating your favorite corn
i love to see when you hiding your favorite place - space between roller n cage
i love to see when you exploring my house
i love when u bite me

i expect to see you grow like your 3 mates
i expect to see you grow stripes
i wish you able to recognize me i'm your owner
and come to my palm when i reach out to you

but you have left me guilt
my carelessness and love has separated you and me
just after 1 week of bond

* i cant imagine the feeling of those parent tat lost their child..

** i miss u, loco, i'll always rmb u..

N/A

-=: 14th Jan 2009 :=-

used to be one....
used to be mind emptied....
looked around....
skipped around....

when love found

learn to trust....
learn to share....
chose to be loved....
chose to be committed....

chose to be not available

Forever Mother's Day

as a darling of them, this is dedicated to shelly and easter, love u guys *muakz*

Mother's day is near
i wish i could buy a gift
a gift tat she needs
a gift tat please her heart

I used to enjoyed her cook, used to complaint
i used to hugged, used to argued
i used to depend, used to be myself
no one could know me more than her

Not willing to let go
when you meet Jesus that night
how much tears should i shed to hold you back
how strong can i be when you are not around

17 years are not enough
wish i could give you more than enough
i'm proud to be me
for i'm your daughter, forever....

"mama, happy mother's day!"

Waiting

People passing around and went off,
words throwing around and faded out,
music still playing,
tv still on,inbox still receiving message.
Knowing what is happening but do not know what has happened,
step by step trying to leave the messy ground,
faint traces of tears appearing in the air...
no, I’m still there, trying to wait…

My Baby

There was a time,
a cute little baby was born in a hurry,
there was no wonderful place to welcome this baby,
but a bright shining star in the east was stop and welcome him.

Many people do not know why this baby was born,
as christmas tree, christmas gift, christmas dinner replacing the meaning of christmas,
but this cute little baby knows that christmas is his first day on earth for the world.

During christmas,
are we counting how many gift we have,or we are counting how many people we have brought them to Christ Jesus.
He is a cutiest baby i've ever met,he was smiling,not because he has bright future,but we have bright future because of him.

Your Initial Love

Let everything that I do is an act that showing out my love towards You.
For You first chose to love me;
Let me sing out a love song from my heart,
For You know what my heart says.
Why everything You’ve done is for me?
Even thou I did not realize sometimes;
Sorry, for I do not know how to write a love song for You,
As You chose to died on the cross for me.
My heart is been captured again when You said I belong to You.
Dear Jesus,
You are my goal to live,
A comforter of my soul,
Never, You never leave me.

Second

Second seems more precious than minute,
everyone enjoying their drinks,
not because how tasty it is,is because how sweet the moment is.
Throwing away all the burdens,
coming out in the late night,sharing the food?
sharing every same second instead.
Looking at baba’s face,happiness flowing out from his hidden smile,
looking at mami’s face,relaxing with a thankful heart;
looking at gah jeh’s face,many words still coming out from her mouth,
but knowing that she is satisfied with every second.
Hearing the voice from others chatting,
hearing the music playing by touching guitarist,
this night,all the sounds are pleasing to the ear even silence comes in at a time.

Letting Go

Playing with the music seems nothing
after knowing you, it expresses out my feeling
Walking with you is imposssible
but will appreciate the moment we spent together
Not at your side i don't mind
but willingly at your behind
Looking at your shadow
so wish to know where you wanna go
As you go toward your future
you will always in my prayer