Time to Wash My Hair or Too Stress?

this picture was taken by my colleague while i was talking on the phone.

now only i realize i look so stress in front of my colleague, until i grab my hair struggling on my work.. haha!! i didn notice that, but indeed i was stress n am stress.. all because those accounts.
oh~ "finance tribe" is killing~ i just always cant understand their language. >_<

Experienced (big) Miracle (again)

Picture speaks the miracle

i like when someone ask me,

"How do you managed to change industry?"
or
"How do you get this (current) job?"
or
"How do you managed to change industry??! i tried but i never get that" <- like the most, but i can't answer this question, as i assumed this person was expecting answer on how well i did to get the job. NO! i didn do anything nor how well am I but how wonderful is God!

Before i answer, i always have that kinda wander look, rolling my eye and smiling. I don't prefer to explain from the time i seeking job until i got over my interview, that's just a process which is quite boring. Instead, i wanna say "miracle" and thanking God in my heart.

Since I started working in my current company, whatever that i've gone through is obviously reminds me of what i was searching for, thinking of and wanted.
i just got to know what actuary do last year, KB told me actuary earn a lot but is hard and it takes a lot of effort to become an actuary. I was wondered what they do and makes them earn a lot (i was eagerly to know all kinds of job as i was planning to change job), then he roughly said something to do with maths. i was like "what??" i like maths a lot but never know what job is related to maths. So i research on this career and even plan to change to this industry IF i'm allowed to.

This is the note i prepared when i wanted to go to UTAR to find out more Actuarial Science but ended up going back home. It's impossible to let go my job and start a course from the beginning (there is no part time course for actuarial degree). Some more the degree can't guarantee a job for me after i graduate. My colleague told me nowdays a lot of fresh graduate can't find job, because the "supply" is more than "demand".

i'm grateful to God for what He has done in my life. it's all began from KB. On last year, KB suddenly started a conversation with his brother (all this while they seldom talk). He asked his brother if there is vacancy for admin job (something that i can do) in his company and he said yes. =D
after the interview, only then i realized my department is actuarial department. =D
after i working sometimes, i realized i (think) can take exam and even claim for exam. =D

"...With men it is impossible, but not with God; for with God all things are possible."
Mark 10:27
"Take delight in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart."
Psalm 37:4

the most grateful thing is how i experience God through this incident, not only providing this job but He is leading me in my career. there shall be part 2 on how i gone through all the difficulties with Christ. =)


* wanted to write this post for long time, finally i got the time. =p

Moving On

3 more days i'm leaving my company, am leaving this "entertainment" industry. I never surprise that people around me were surprised at my decision, especially my department head, he couldn believe it, i guess is either my acting is way too good, or my performance is too good to leave.

i'm not only changing my job, but industry. from an informal environment to a formal environment. i just felt like i've been playing around quite sometimes, is time to settle down for a real job, hahaha!! aint I working all this while?? i dunno why, i just had this kinda feeling.

because of the new job, i gotta force myself to go shopping, i bought a trouser, three blouses, one skirt, one cardigan, a coat and a dress, amazing! never have I bought so many except CNY.

cant wait to start new job, because of those new cloths.. >=p

my new cloths.. oh by the way, i so heart this peter pan collar blouse, it's so sweet~

* Gonna write a post on how great is God whom provide this job for me, and my "new life" with "new cloths" (soon to be revealed)

Tensionsss++

next week is gonna be my tension week, yes, very tension is bcuz:-

1. i need to squeeze my brain for my job and rush for it, it's boring~ *whisper* but i really thank God when i dunno how to do, i asked God and He gave me the picture/word for my job, then things seems work accordingly
2. i need to go for ultrasound check up, cuz i felt something wrong wit my chest.. err! =(
3. waiting for reply from R&H, they said they gonna reply me after 2 weeks, means tis week is the "due date", i'm so earnestly waiting for their reply cuz i'm really interested in it..

tension~ pressure~

Test Your Working Attitude

tis morning radio 988 shared a psychology test, "do you prefer driving on the road with a car in front of you or no car at all?"

this test is to explain what is your attitude in your working place, the explanation is:

if u prefer driving on the road with a car in front of u, u r such a person that need a guidance in ur career (or may b in life too), so that u have a target or goal to achieve and u will perform better with a guidance.. n when there's no car in front of u, u may tend to slow down or feel uneasy.

if u prefer driving alone, no car in front of u, so that u can drive freely, then u r such a person that prefer working alone, handling a project or a job alone, so that u can think n decide everything on ur own freely, even if there's any problem occur, u will bear the responsibility urself.

mm.. quite true, i'm the 2nd person, i prefer driving without a car in front of me, n not blocking me, so that i can drive according to my speed.. in working place, not to say i like to be alone during work, but if i know how to do the job, i prefer in charge n work on it all by myself until i finish it, then only allow input from other people, i dun prefer other people giving idea or helping me up in the mist of my job, shld be giving me all the requirement and material b4 the job, and let me finish it. and that's y i started off my business by myself. =)

* but who prefer driving with a car in front??

Thought of the Day 4: Late Night Work & Love

thou it seems not worth doing it, i think baby oso thinks that it's not worth it, going so far away to do the job at late night wit little payment.. but for me it's stil ok le, cuz i can learn while doing it.. editing trailer is diff, there's way of doing it, making it impressive, emotional n yet, not telling the story.. is not done yet, stil have to go back n do.. 

b4 i leave office, i wanted to tell jay about it, but it was too rush, hopefully tmr i can tell him, not sure how will he respond..

i'm so tired, but still wanna write something here.. when i look at baby in car, i felt so warm n touched, he waited for my call n fetch me back, a patience tat i never expect from him or any guy, it was 230am.. is too late to be awake.. i'm so blessed to have u.. =)

Thought of the Day 1: Miss Chan

虽然不是很多人爱和miss chan说话聊天，可是她的辞职还是很突然，至少对我来说是很突然。我想很多人还是不习惯她的不在吧，她此终在公司做了十多年，是一个非常勤劳的员工，虽然有时候话多了一点，长气了一点，不过对公司和员工还是有利无害。

Recently..

i've been so bz recently, not only for my job, but oso for my "little business". last month was bz starting off my online business, n getting new cloths and some necessary stuff for bazaar, at the same time, was busying for an event job, after all these, need to rush for another 3 days video edit, oh man~ i was quite exhausted, cuz i was sick like mama oso cannot recognize me, my voice changed to "agua" voice n yet, i cant take mc, cuz need to rush for the jobs.

anyway, i'm quite enjoyed wat i'm doing, for editing, is glad tat i can edit with the director of Sell Out for an event video of Time Dot Com, to come out a better or almost perfect video (atleast it's not some corporate video nor simple montage commercial).. =) for my online business, i'm surprise tat almost everyone support me, n getting wishes tat i'll b success in this area. =)

MacBook Pro 17" that company rent for my video playback for Kancil event, this laptop is awesome, touchpad is like iphone, can do scrolling, zoom in n out, etc, but it's too sensitive until i screwed up some video playback.. >_<

b4 event start, let's take a photo first.. with macbook pro

the next day was my bazaar, mm.. the business so so, reason was not many ppl in 3 two square but i stil able to cover my cost.. =)

really thanks for those who came n visit my stall, shelly, jin sun, my sis, esther and kb, most of all, my mum whom help me a lot since i started my business..

Bad Attitude

the attitude is

lazy and sleepy;

only music,

work of others inspired the editor;

that is me,

the freaking lazy creature.

New Experience

previously i was stil making my decision, should i start this (read more: Decision Making).. and now i've made decided to do, which is online boutique, i've done research for 2 months, seeing how people do, then only realize there are a lot of people doing this, so does it mean it's a very easy things to do? and yet, people nowadays in malaysia stil not so trust in internet purchase especially clothing..

anyway, i've already started, atfirst i really have not much confident to do it, cuz so many people doing it and i nvr do any business before, but i really thank God that people around me has been so supportive n helpful in my (small) business..

here are the links:
grazioso facebook
grazioso blogspot

Busy With God

recently quite bz (which is good) for 2 jobs, 1 of it have to sit in wit director most of the time during edit.. at first was quite nervous, cuz the director looks very experienced, setting high requirement and he said he expect good quality work during first brief, not cheap cheap wan, then he shown us his showreel, after seeing his reels, we were like........ err... anyway, not to judge his work here..

so after working wit him, he is fine in person, n we were cooperating well, job was approved n today wil b doing audio final mix..

and another job is web commercial, the agency actually a bit fuzzy, but so far everything was fine, not much changes after first preview, client was easy going, she leave it to our expertise..

all i wanna say is God has been watching over my career, i know recently some of the things i did wasn pleasing God, and i was thinking if He stil listen to my prayer, but i didn care so much, i know i need Him, no matter how, i'll pray n leave it to God.. i prayed to b like Joseph (Gen 39), i need God's presence wit me, n everything wil b prospered wit His presence..

"casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you" 1 Peter 5:7

Learned Something.. (new)

not really something new, but something has to be noted for my work (i know most of the ppl know it n doing it).. thank God that my recent job has gone smoothly so far thou haven approve n give final master.. i'm not a very good in communication especially speaking in english, but when i present my work, something has to b sure in order to avoid many unnecessary changes and affect my performance and work flow (eventhou i'm not good in communication but tis help.. i think):

1. always b sure wat i have and wat i dun have in terms of material (footage, stills, music and etc)

2. knowing and always prepare the reasons for wat i've done, in case client ask why is tis like tis, and not like tat

3. always rmb all the footages, it does help to explain n persuade the client tat tis is the best i've edited.. for event video, know well about their event, insert all the happening/important shots as many as i have

4. lastly, experience help knowing the temper of client

* i started loving my career, not to say i dun like last time but kinda lost, not sure if it's suitable for me.. however, the more i worked, the more movies/video i've seen, the more i like my career..

Wrong Timing

平常工作时间没工做，闲得要命，
周末来了，有工做，真无聊!
为什么工作都不在周日(正常工作时间)有呢，没什么要在周末才有得做,浪费我的时间!
也不是谁的错，问题是人在周末的时候才得空，所以一些event周末才进行
hai~

For Me But Not Mine

"christmas gift" - arrived at christmas season

in this new year, tis is wat i got.. i mean tis is wat company get for their editor:::


we wanted balloons, ribbon, red carpet, and some music b4 we launch our machine... anyhow, we just started wit a knife...


da dah! proudly present, edithouse macpro! (aka grace's macho-babe, keke..)


mighty mouse, really mighty leh, 360 degree scroller, right n left n side click; very slim keyboard, putting on the table, like table built-in keyboard


leopard OS, powderful weh, nice graphic, canggih interface..

few words:
in tis new year, i would like to express my appreciation toward my colleague, they helped n guided me when we fighting against the job n senseless client, n oso for their patience over a hot temper colleague like me, althou i didn scold ppl, throwing stuff, breaking the wall, destroying the machine, but i know i did unconsciously show my tension, stress n unwillingless expression on my face (as if i'm the only one who is stressful)..
i know when they came into my room, they just wanna give me more information to ease my job, they wanna see if i need any help, but i always building up a virtual fence n a sign of "do not disturb, or else i'll grrr!!!!"
anyway, thanks for sharing responsibility and burden wit me.. i'm not alone..

* if i got increment i lagi happy..

Mood on the Road

working late is not a good habit, not healthy, not safe, worrying ur parent, no social life, etc... conclusion is NO LIFE..

i work late yest, until mid nite, not i want to but i chose to.. hehe.. according to my head, he said if really lots to do, we can postpone the date, it's not tat urgent, but i dun wanna drag tis job anymore.. sien~

good thing driving back home late, is lesser car, u can drive very fast.. hehe.. or listening to songs, quietly and calmly driving on the road, feel good~~

My Office, My Room, My Stuff

quite free in the office, so posting some of my office room photo here..

my room, where i sleep, eat, surf internet.. hehe.. ofcuz work la.. tis is old setting, no more using pc, no hardware for now (Avid Mojo, i'll always rmb u, my babe-mojo!!!!)..

tv and stolen dvd player from machine room.. kekeke.. and some colourful companion from previous colleague, btw, i've no idea y tis paper toys r here, not i stolen it..

my big sceen! oops! shld have close the facebook.. *whisper*

new machine, mac, looks rugged.. err!!

Dun Pray Pray

i realize God has been so faithful recently, indeed, He is faithful, is how we put our faith in Him.. i've been skipping prayer meeting many times due to work, so tis morning i prayed to God tat job which i'm handling can be done early today (which is quite impossible, cuz today shoot, then edit and present tmr), so tat i can attend prayer meeting (normal a bit la, always work meh). so when i reach office tis morning, i saw my producer and head relax sja, wearing as usual (not shooting look), then i ask my producer, michelle,

"today no shooting meh?"

mich: "cancelled.."

me: "huh? then tmr presentation how?"

mich: "dunno.."

so, it's postponed..

"God, the way u answer my prayer quite straight forward rite??" said in my heart..

* so tonite i must attend prayer meeting, no excuse!

Grace is....

Grace just back from work..

Grace is hungry..

Grace was frustrated over her job, she thinks she didn do well, n now trying her very best.. anyhow she is grateful that having colleague tat ready to help..

Grace is having gastric on and off since last sat, may b she making herself too stress..

Grace hates Media Composer, cuz it's stupid and arrogant to her, it slow down her computer, slow down her work, nearly mess up her job, she miss Express Pro~

Grace was touched by God when she was driving back home, she knows that no matter how, God is stil care for her..

Grace is missing someone, someone that shared her interest and her little things in life, but not faith in Christ, sigh~

Grace wish tat she no need to prepare sharing for tis coming sat, cuz she doesn know how to prepare for tis week - TOL (Think Out Loud), discussing current issue..

* there is a feature in Facebook, writing ur status, (e.g. Grace is "at work"), so instead of writing my status there, and either ppl dun understand or think that i show off or mouliu or watever... so i blast it out here..

I Missed 1 Sunday

when i woke up tis morning, i asked myself,

"wat day is today? ... is sunday rite?"

"no, today is monday... 1 week has past..."

"wat?! work again?? .................."

it was stil early, so i go back n sleep again..

when i woke up, i asked myself,
"wat day is today? ... is sunday rite?"
"no, today is monday... 1 week has past..."
"wat?! oh~~ i missed 1 sunday.................."

when i was driving to office yesterday morning, i passby BCM (Bible College of Malaysia), i seen lot of cars parking outside, i said in my heart,

"today is sunday leh.. as a christian, y am i doing here?? i'm suppose to b in the church.. hai~~~~"

bcuz of work, which need to be done yesterday, i skipped church... =/

my edit room, normally is neat wan.. now like factory..

Early Home Sweet Home

today reach home b4 7pm, so abnormal, even some of the colleague oso back around 5 or 6pm something, i think bcuz company network down, (cuz of renovation?)