Mood on the Road

working late is not a good habit, not healthy, not safe, worrying ur parent, no social life, etc... conclusion is NO LIFE..

i work late yest, until mid nite, not i want to but i chose to.. hehe.. according to my head, he said if really lots to do, we can postpone the date, it's not tat urgent, but i dun wanna drag tis job anymore.. sien~

good thing driving back home late, is lesser car, u can drive very fast.. hehe.. or listening to songs, quietly and calmly driving on the road, feel good~~

等 之 Keeping A Distance

"keeping a distance" <- doesn sounds good to me

wat is the definition and measurement of "a distance"?

how far can we keep? how close can we hold on to?

for now...

arr! i'm not good in expressing myself, hope tat one day he will understand..

Walk With God

"When Enoch had lived 65 years, he became the father of Methuselah. And after he became the father of Methuselah, Enoch walked with God 300 years and had other sons and daughters. Altogether, Enoch lived 365 years. Enoch walked with God; then he was no more, because God took him away

When Methuselah had lived 187 years, he became the father of Lamech. And after he became the father of Lamech, Methuselah lived 782 years and had other sons and daughters.
Altogether, Methuselah lived 969 years, and then he died." Gen 5:21-27

nowadays, ppl live about 80years+- is consider a blessing, is there anyone on earth wish to live more than 100 years?? no one can imagine wat can we do after age 100.

i've seen and heard some ppl said they're tired of tis and tired of tat, ppl tend to feel hopeless, wat for to have such long life?? even some christian, they tired of being christian, tired of being obedient, tired of making a difference, and faith is slipping away.. they have plenty of excuses, oh i mean reasons to give up the faith, tis is wat we called - back sliding? btw, there was a time i used to b like one of them..

human r keep living in their own way, own desire, yet still hopeless in future, couldn trust God, feel tired, thus God take away the blessing of longevity... is tis the reason y human life is getting shorter and shorter?? anyway, i believe tis is not wat God wants, instead, He want us to walk with Him and trust Him whole heartedly in our entire life no matter how long we live on this earth.

Methuselah lived 969 years, he had longest life ever in history, he walked with God for 969 years! if we are blessed with 80 years of life, can we walk with God (trust Him, obey Him, live for Him and do His will) in our whole life for 80years?

My Office, My Room, My Stuff

quite free in the office, so posting some of my office room photo here..

my room, where i sleep, eat, surf internet.. hehe.. ofcuz work la.. tis is old setting, no more using pc, no hardware for now (Avid Mojo, i'll always rmb u, my babe-mojo!!!!)..

tv and stolen dvd player from machine room.. kekeke.. and some colourful companion from previous colleague, btw, i've no idea y tis paper toys r here, not i stolen it..

my big sceen! oops! shld have close the facebook.. *whisper*

new machine, mac, looks rugged.. err!!

等 之 没有承诺的承诺

刚刚一个月过去了，问我有什么感想的话，那个形容词应该是....挣扎,但是会有一点点的喜悦或一点点的感动。

挣扎还是会有因为那个timing还没到，不可以出错，继续等和做应该做的事情。喜悦和感动是因为他进步了，
希望不是因为我。

Long Holiday~

due to hari raya, i've got 4 days holiday, shiok! karaoke, shopping, sleep and sleep and sleep...

1st day (wed):

1 day trip in kl wit family, went to Pavilion, shopping and karaoke, first time karaoke wit family

went to Starhill..

waiting for our room, thou has booked, but stil have to wait..

we begin..

my sis really darn bad wan, laugh at parent, as if she sings very well

everyone was really enjoyed singing, especially my parent, they addicted to it, wanting to have 2nd time.. i'm not type of young people tat like to "sing k" but after today, i think i quite enjoy singing.. i mean sing freakingly..

planned to have fish spa in pavilion, however, my dad need to go back early to see his office/factory (recently he is very bz), so we ended our trip in the evening..

btw, pavilion is not a superb expensive / high class shopping mall, i wonder y most of the ppl say it's stuff is expensive n so on, mm.. not really, quite variety, is like combination of one u, mid valley and klcc?

2nd day (thurs):

went shopping wit mum, long time nvr shop wit mum, we used to go shopping when i was schooling, bring her out once i have holiday (cuz can ask her pay ma.. *whisper* keke..)

we shop freakingly, from 12pm++ until 8pm++ in mid valley and garden

after shooping, we had our tea time in garden (forgot wat's the cafe name), btw, the scone is not so nice.. =/ anyway, we did enjoyed shopping..

3rd day (fri):

"dun wake me up for breakfast, have breakfast wit sis since she is working tmr" i said to my mum day b4.. keke.. wanna sleep until very late like no body business..

so i slept until 12pm++ then find my fren - Ling for lunch, after lunch went back office do some stuff (oh, so hard working~~ >=p) cuz lunch nearby my office..

4th day (sat):

planned to clean up my room (always need to clean up cuz always messy) n backing up my hard disc, mana tau, 1 call received, church lack of musician, so rush to church n help up.. "on call musician" sounds good huh? then had service at nite, a great service by pastor victor from US

* not much photo taken, anyway, spent a lot of money in this holiday.. -_-

War Photographer

i watched a video which introduced by my fren, War Photographer - James Nachtwey. it's about a war photographer involved in war to shoot "the story", during war and after war. i really respect him as a pro photographer or may b a story teller, the way how he fully committed his life in photo shooting, bringing back wat he has seen thru his eye, instead of his lense (wit his dusty camera). the way he shoot, photos tat taken by him, is not about wat camera nor lense he use nor how skillful he is, but is all about wat he sees, and telling u to be aware of wat is happening around us, bcuz of tat, he shot amazing photo. 

i nvr have so much inspiration/interest to shoot portrait (as if i'm a pro photographer =p), as my fren realized, i like to shoot object (may b is easier to shoot n giving u wider imagination behind the object instead of people who can straight forward telling u from their expression). after seeing Nachtwey's master piece, shooting human might b easy if given opportunity but whether can grab the juice of it n stirring up ur heart.. mm..

when i watch the video, look at his photos, i wonder how he shoot when the situation was so dangerous and all tis people were so emotional, he was so near to tis ppl and they nvr bother his existence at all. then he said, he approach them, he communicate wit them.. they know wat he wanna do, they wil allow him to have his way and do their part: cry, fight, etc..

Romania, 1990 - An orphanage for " incurables".

Zimbabwe, 2000 - In a tuberculosis ward where the great majority of the patients suffer from AIDS.

Indonesia, 1998 - A beggar washed his children in a polluted canal.

my fav, an one leg and one arm man, keeping his family, trying best to care for them, his family love him for who he is too..

 

Bosnia, 1993 - Ethnic cleansing in Mostar. Croat militiaman fires on his Moslem neighbors.

Bosnia, 1993 - Mourning a soldier killed in the civil war.

Rwanda, 1994 - Survivor of Hutu death camp

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Chechnya, 1996 - Chechen rebel fighting along the front line against the Russian army.

India, 1993 - Untouchables working in a brick factory.

for more photo n his website:

http://www.jamesnachtwey.com

* my fren ask if i cried when i watch tis video, i said no, may b bcuz the fact is too dramatic, and his shot dramatic too, in fact, all tis r real in our life..

Dun Pray Pray

i realize God has been so faithful recently, indeed, He is faithful, is how we put our faith in Him.. i've been skipping prayer meeting many times due to work, so tis morning i prayed to God tat job which i'm handling can be done early today (which is quite impossible, cuz today shoot, then edit and present tmr), so tat i can attend prayer meeting (normal a bit la, always work meh). so when i reach office tis morning, i saw my producer and head relax sja, wearing as usual (not shooting look), then i ask my producer, michelle,

"today no shooting meh?"

mich: "cancelled.."

me: "huh? then tmr presentation how?"

mich: "dunno.."

so, it's postponed..

"God, the way u answer my prayer quite straight forward rite??" said in my heart..

* so tonite i must attend prayer meeting, no excuse!

等

很多东西都要等
如果知道那样东西的定期, 或者知道要等什么那还好。
但是, 如果不知道要等多久, 更不知道等待后会得到什么, 这种等待的感觉还真遭糕。
我就是在 "享受" 这种等待。

想要说却不应该说出口的话, 就要放在心里, 转移话题; 想要做却不该做的事, 就要继续做应该做的事不管多么累, 不然就会很容易犯规。

我不能完全相信人的承诺, 不是因为人是不遵守承诺, 而是人有限度, 不知未来, 什么都会变。
我只祈求我能胜过这个考验, 等待的结果不会让我后悔或伤心。


* 才刚开始等了几天, 我就问自己到底要等多久, 虽然我知道可能要等几个月(那就很好了)，1年甚至几年。

Dun Wanna Change Ah?

after youth and young adult cell group, we went yam cha, while on the way to sri hartamas, me n my sis past by my previous company,  we started tis conversation (in cantonese)..

me: "以前我成日都行以条路，以家唔锡咯，lum起都惊.."

last time i used to take tis road to office, now no need dy, quite frightening when think about it

sis: "以家嘞？（惊唔惊?）

now? (scared or not?)

she just like to ask so much.. rubbish..

me: "梗系无啦!"

ofcuz no!

sis: "xxx (previous company producer) 哩牌点啊？"

how is xxx? (previous company producer)

she always ask tis question, cuz she knows i dun like the producer.. mm.. i mean i used to dun like her.. now i love her!

me: "总没死得住呱"（oops!）

stil alive i think

sis: "ooi!" 

she stared at me

sis: "你总没forgive啊？"

u haven forgive ah?

me: "forgive佐啦，想点哦??"

forgive dy la, wat u expect oh??

sis: "甘Jesus有无甘讲＂forgive佐啦，想点哦？＂  

did Jesus ever said: "forgive dy la, wat u expect oh?"

me: "哈哈！哈哈！"

hahahaha...

sis: "定埋十字架佐，总想点？"  

hang on the cross somemore, wat else u expect?

she likes to joke and give a lot of "example" so i cont wit her joke, we always dwelling in our own world

me: "哈哈！＂死埋再返生，总唔改meh?"

died and rose again, stil dun wanna change meh?

both of us laugh..

we were not making fun of our beloved Him, in fact, is quite true, Jesus died on the cross for us, to save us from our sin, r we willing to surrender our life to Him, live for Him, allow Him to change us and forgive other like how Jesus forgive our sins by die on the cross for us.

"死埋再返生，总唔改meh?"

died and rose again, stil dun wanna change meh?