How Lovely is He

To avoid doing or saying thing I regret, I must remind myself how good is he - KB.


He is patient
He patiently without complain fetching me from east to west, north to south as long as I ask him to.
He wont say no when I ask him to fetch my aunt home when she has no transport to church and back home.
He even dont mind shopping with me (or even with my sis and mum) for hours if I'm looking for something


He is willing to spend for the sake of love
He is stingy sometime, just because he save the money for our future (of course, never deny that it's for his favorite stuff too)
If he is not stingy to save the money, he wont be able to buy a house for both of us, and I only have to pay the cukai tanah =p
He bought cheap and pricey stuff that I like

He got a thick face
He never stop saying "I love you" or some sweet word thou he is not good at that


He is loving
I'm pretty, cute and sexy to him most of the time, not because how I dress up, but it's how much he loves me even thou I wear shorts n t shirt and talk like guy.
He tries his best spending time with me, he always tell me he may not have enough time for me whenever he has to rush for job, but most of the time, he is able to see me atleast a dinner time.

I always complain about him, always bother what he does cuz worry about how people think of us or him, however, 
"Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things." Philippians 4:8

Pre-Wedding Shoot

I just done pre-wedding shoot with KB, i would say it's a good one thou if I can shoot again, I will choose to do it again, because I know I can do better and more feel~
I dont know why, after prepared for quite some time, did some research, getting make up artist, booking gown, preparing some props and so on, I still didnt really do well, as in not so in to the mood, i really dont know why! and when I look at KB, I was so miss the casual wear of him (I'm not saying his dress up not nice, but instead, looks really cool). May be I really love who he is, and not how he dress up and may be I wasn't use to be such a way, wearing so elegantly, being so lady, nah~ not me.. 
I do HOPE the photos turn out very awesome.......

no place to change cloth, thanks to Grace Tan's suggestion, asking me to get ready with sarong.

* oh by the way, i woke up at 4am, didnt really sleep well and eat well before going to shoot.. @_@

Bersih 3.0

I always think that doing protest is as such:

 and I'll become like that:

 too into drama, i know.. -_-

so i never thought that one day i'll join a protest, cuz honestly, i'm not patriotic

as many people know (especially from FB), Bersih 3.0 has ended up violently or even unfairly. but this is also not my objective of attending Bersih 3.0, to provoke havoc (<- worse intention).

i was planned to take photo and see the crowd, ofcuz, i was prepared to face harmful situation, i brought tower, water, salt and even earphone, becuz many people said government has set up a device that will damage our hearing.

on 428, chung called my sis early morning, said LRT will not operating after 9am, so we quickly get up, without having breakfast and rush to LRT station and arrived before 9am at Masjik Jamek. we were the earliest bird among our friends that are joining Bersih which we didn't plan to go together until few days before we realized they are going too. Chung, Andrew, Shelly, Jin Sun, my sis and KB.

a photo before the event mess up, didnt get to meet up with KB and shelly as there were late, and chung was busy helping friend to set up the big helium balloon. 

as many people know, whether they joint or not, this event turned up unhappily, violently, and not as both parties agreed before. i'm not sure what and how they promised, all i heard from news was that Ambiga, Bersih's chairman said we will not enter Dataran Merdeka as we are not allowed to, so we shall follow the rules.


at about 2pm+, we follow the crowd, heading Dataran Merdeka's direction, not to sit there but may be sitting around the place. walking half way, my sis said better don't go further because she said something may not turn out right, so we stop there and see what is the next step. after a while, we heard some people shouting: "turn back!!" then we saw the people infront showing their hand, indicate that dont go infront, but go back. so me and my sis just follow, reverse our direction but some people stopping, and some people insist want to go foward. that moment, me and my sis dont want to care what the crowd flow, we just try to go back. then again, we heard more people shouting "go back!!" or "balik!!" we looked back, and saw people were running toward us, now we know, we need to run, gotta leave asap, cuz we even saw the smoke. but too many people were there, i beg we can only move 1 step in 2 secs, cant move. situation becoming very tension, some people shout, squeeze to leave the place (felt like acting in the movie, trying to run off from tsunami). i think some people had experience, they shouted "relax!", "calm down!", indeed, it's really calm us down. but not more than 5mins, another sound of tear gas. "poom!! poom!!" people were getting more tension, so me and my sis try our best to run and protect each other, stay close to each other. what was in my mind, "i'm scared, i want to leave this place" then i look at my sis, she was covering her mouth with her wet tower, i was thinking "if anything happen to her, i sure regret, cuz she was sick, and i was the one more insist to go for Bersih."
thank God, we managed to ran to OCBC bank cross junction safely, my eyes was full of tears, face felt like been rubbed by chili, want to drink water but cant swallow, and thrown out. i cant imagine people at the front, how they survived?? later then i know KB was at the front. >_< he said he almost fainted because of the heavy tear gas.
at the end, we took taxi home, because nearby stations were either closed or filled with many people.


this experience is really memorable to me, i can titled it as "Running Away From Disaster" rather than joining a protest event. because there are 2 things i saw personally in this situation, 1. passionate protesters who tried to fight for their right, fight for their land. 2. blinded polis who tried to "wipe off" the protesters as "clean" as possible. "sheat!"


Bersih makes me treasure my only vote, i hope it will remind other peoples of their votes too..

Birthday Song from Church

i've got a very special birthday song from church.

thanks to my sis, she told most of the people in church that today is my birthday, ended up they spread all over the church, until bro raymond who was the worship leader today, suggested to sing me birthday song. what really surprise me was pastor agreed to his suggestion and immediately those musicians discuss they key and start playing birthday song.. gosh! all i can do is just smiling on stage as i was the pianist today.
anyhow, i feel very appreciated with such blessing, they are such a big family of mine, such a gift is must better than things that money can buy. =)

Time to Wash My Hair or Too Stress?

this picture was taken by my colleague while i was talking on the phone.

now only i realize i look so stress in front of my colleague, until i grab my hair struggling on my work.. haha!! i didn notice that, but indeed i was stress n am stress.. all because those accounts.
oh~ "finance tribe" is killing~ i just always cant understand their language. >_<

New Journey Begun..

after searching 4 photographers, finally me and KB decided to get Grace Tan as our photographer, she is our favorite photographer, a photographer that shoot beyond her job scope, she is story teller. we have been looking for suitable pre-wedding package even though we know the existence of her, because her package is not cheap as we gonna spend a lot for our wedding.
as at now, none is better than her, so we ended up chose her. also because KB 爱面子 *whisper* and he tries to give me his best la. =)
ah~ preparation begun, don't know how will it turns out..

Proposal/Christmas Gift

Long time never blog, password almost forgotten some more.

I've got a very big gift from KB, instead of showing it in FB which is what people are doing now days, I rather blog it here.

Sigma lense 17-70mm
2.8-4.0

Me and KB went for recce for pre wedding shoot place at KL today. Before that, he told me he wants to go to a special place, i was thinking may be some special place for recce which i dont know, or he wants to propose to me in this "special place"?? ha! i think to much, impossible.. said in my heart.
after we went to bank and withdrew our money, he drove to this very old shopping mall at KL which until now i still dont know what it's called, i only know that YL (famous camera trading shop) is inside this shopping mall.
KB: "familiar with this place?"
me: "mm.. YL is here isnt it?"
then he smile. and said wanna buy lense for me, which is the one i aiming to buy years later. i was kinda surprise of what he planned to do because i just told him a week ago and i really didnt expect him to buy, cause it's too expensive. he said this will be my wedding gift kah, christmas gift kah and birthday gift. ah~ to me, whatever.. i just love the gift. =)
day before i even asked him, what he did that is showing love towards me,he seems answering me crap, i knew, he dont know how to answer me, he just can't express well.. well, for me to find out i guess.. =) <3

New Kawaii

My first and new ride. ^^
Miss it more than missing KB when i just got it.. =p

Experienced (big) Miracle (again)

Picture speaks the miracle

i like when someone ask me,

"How do you managed to change industry?"
or
"How do you get this (current) job?"
or
"How do you managed to change industry??! i tried but i never get that" <- like the most, but i can't answer this question, as i assumed this person was expecting answer on how well i did to get the job. NO! i didn do anything nor how well am I but how wonderful is God!

Before i answer, i always have that kinda wander look, rolling my eye and smiling. I don't prefer to explain from the time i seeking job until i got over my interview, that's just a process which is quite boring. Instead, i wanna say "miracle" and thanking God in my heart.

Since I started working in my current company, whatever that i've gone through is obviously reminds me of what i was searching for, thinking of and wanted.
i just got to know what actuary do last year, KB told me actuary earn a lot but is hard and it takes a lot of effort to become an actuary. I was wondered what they do and makes them earn a lot (i was eagerly to know all kinds of job as i was planning to change job), then he roughly said something to do with maths. i was like "what??" i like maths a lot but never know what job is related to maths. So i research on this career and even plan to change to this industry IF i'm allowed to.

This is the note i prepared when i wanted to go to UTAR to find out more Actuarial Science but ended up going back home. It's impossible to let go my job and start a course from the beginning (there is no part time course for actuarial degree). Some more the degree can't guarantee a job for me after i graduate. My colleague told me nowdays a lot of fresh graduate can't find job, because the "supply" is more than "demand".

i'm grateful to God for what He has done in my life. it's all began from KB. On last year, KB suddenly started a conversation with his brother (all this while they seldom talk). He asked his brother if there is vacancy for admin job (something that i can do) in his company and he said yes. =D
after the interview, only then i realized my department is actuarial department. =D
after i working sometimes, i realized i (think) can take exam and even claim for exam. =D

"...With men it is impossible, but not with God; for with God all things are possible."
Mark 10:27
"Take delight in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart."
Psalm 37:4

the most grateful thing is how i experience God through this incident, not only providing this job but He is leading me in my career. there shall be part 2 on how i gone through all the difficulties with Christ. =)


* wanted to write this post for long time, finally i got the time. =p

Chic Pop 6 + Miracle

As I was heading to chic pop after breakfast, the sky was actually getting dark, it's kinda freak me out, cuz i can't miss this bazaar as this bazaar is the most expensive bazaar i've ever joint, and i plan to clear my old stocks. Thus, i prayed...

The picture speaks the miracle, there was nice weather through out the event, and was super crowded. visitors were here and lined up for registration even before the event starts. the amount i earned on that day equals to total of 3 days i've earned at MOFEW.

I nearly miss this bazaar as there was no reply from the organizer, cuz i late giving confirmation. at the end, they called me up for payment. =)

Moving On

3 more days i'm leaving my company, am leaving this "entertainment" industry. I never surprise that people around me were surprised at my decision, especially my department head, he couldn believe it, i guess is either my acting is way too good, or my performance is too good to leave.

i'm not only changing my job, but industry. from an informal environment to a formal environment. i just felt like i've been playing around quite sometimes, is time to settle down for a real job, hahaha!! aint I working all this while?? i dunno why, i just had this kinda feeling.

because of the new job, i gotta force myself to go shopping, i bought a trouser, three blouses, one skirt, one cardigan, a coat and a dress, amazing! never have I bought so many except CNY.

cant wait to start new job, because of those new cloths.. >=p

my new cloths.. oh by the way, i so heart this peter pan collar blouse, it's so sweet~

* Gonna write a post on how great is God whom provide this job for me, and my "new life" with "new cloths" (soon to be revealed)

Is Time To Change

ohda, i cut my hair, long waited new style, i was either no money or dunno what to cut, finally potongkan sama dia, cuz i was too bored with my long styleless hair..

my sis was too free, and capture the process..

took a pic of my long hair before cutting it.. never expect it turned out so nice.. ^^

before and after.. still look nice in whichever hair style.. *ahem* >=p

By God's Grace

Is been a while i've not blogging.. i was busying for my job then now is for my online boutique, i'm getting into it and like what i'm doing, and thus much effort and commitment has putting in.

I really thank God for what He has done for me, for my blogshop, all this while, my blogshop is been reviewed by online fashion reviewer whenever there is new arrival or sale or promotion. but this time something is out of the norm. i received an email from Remaja about 2 weeks ago, only 3 short sentences of email:

"Hai I’m fara from magazine REMAJA. I ada feature your online butik dalam REMAJA tau..jgn lupa beli k!"

my respond was: "wth.. dun understand" i think my bm is bad, gotta read again. then i was like.. -> >_<

can't believe that! i quickly reply with my joy to this editor of Remaja (i guess she is) and she even bought her favorite dress from me. haha!!

I wanna thank God for this is because there are plenty of blogshops, and many are more famous and unique product than mine but I was picked! nothing but God's grace.

Featured in Remaja July Issue

Celebrating Mine While Celebrating His..

celebrated our birthday together tis year, due to his work busyness.. nothing much to say, but again, sweet~~ =p

short tongue, failed!

obviously, this is our dinner..

blessed birthday to u and me...

* shld have more photos of my bday coming up, from my sis' hp..

So Deep In Me

when u leave, I couldn't sleep

Thinking so deep, when will we meet?

So much you are the one i miss..

mm.. tis is wat i posted on kb's facebook, it took so much courage to post tis "bulu naik" so-called poem.. all bcuz i'm so appreciate the time he spent wit me out of his bz working schedule, he dun even have enuf sleep..

Tensionsss++

next week is gonna be my tension week, yes, very tension is bcuz:-

1. i need to squeeze my brain for my job and rush for it, it's boring~ *whisper* but i really thank God when i dunno how to do, i asked God and He gave me the picture/word for my job, then things seems work accordingly
2. i need to go for ultrasound check up, cuz i felt something wrong wit my chest.. err! =(
3. waiting for reply from R&H, they said they gonna reply me after 2 weeks, means tis week is the "due date", i'm so earnestly waiting for their reply cuz i'm really interested in it..

tension~ pressure~

Though of the Day 8

到了这个地步还不能和我好好地沟通，instead of 生你的气, 我应该可怜你吧，毕竟你的全职就是要和别人沟通. 要和我说的话又不敢对着我说,我说的话你又不要听..
我的新任牧师, 为了事奉的着想，你是不是该对每一个会友(包括我在内)都有良好的沟通和关系?

Though of the Day 7: Needed to Change

never felt so nervous b4 compare to last time, may be bcuz after baby told me how well known they are, how pro they are and how his fren gone thru all tis..

at first, during the test i felt like i'm taking an exam tat i didn prepare well, then when i know wat is the purpose i'm here, i told myself i must try my very best and pray for God's help.. so i put myself into the test given, and i able to do it, thou i wasn sure if i was correct but i did my best, n they shld know i dun have experience in tis as long as the concept is right..

during interview, i just felt God was giving me strength and confident to answer all questions, thanks to sis and baby for giving tips, i was even amazed at how i answered and behaved.. thank God, You always there for me in any situation..

i wanna get tis, i really wish to, and i wanna move on and leave where i am rite now.. during the test, i didn feel frustrated when i wasn sure how to do it, instead, i wanna overcome it and hope tat one day i will be able to handle it well when i'm assigned to do tis..

Additional Holiday

after long cny holiday, we i tend to be very lazy, cuz i wan more holiday!! thank God, dunno who set the holiday on 26th feb, so we have 1 more holiday on tis fri.. uhu!! =p

so i went out wit kb in the morning, then go shopping, lunch and lepaking and watch movie at his hse.. a simple dating schedule, it will be lovely and sweet for who u being with.. ^^

we went to Pet's Wonderland, The Curve, n saw this creature, a pair of long and thin legs, short hand, body like hamster, we were so wonder wat it is, then kb asked the staff there then only know it's Australia's kangaroo.. >_<>

after long period of squeezing my head to spend money in Guardian (n oso not to waste money just for the hippo), finally i got this wit half price, RM18.90, the best part is i didn fork out a single to cent buy tis, cuz kb bough it for me.. *happy*

try to have same look.. ^^

"mr. hippo, welcome to our family, u r my 3rd one from kb.."

Test Your Working Attitude

tis morning radio 988 shared a psychology test, "do you prefer driving on the road with a car in front of you or no car at all?"

this test is to explain what is your attitude in your working place, the explanation is:

if u prefer driving on the road with a car in front of u, u r such a person that need a guidance in ur career (or may b in life too), so that u have a target or goal to achieve and u will perform better with a guidance.. n when there's no car in front of u, u may tend to slow down or feel uneasy.

if u prefer driving alone, no car in front of u, so that u can drive freely, then u r such a person that prefer working alone, handling a project or a job alone, so that u can think n decide everything on ur own freely, even if there's any problem occur, u will bear the responsibility urself.

mm.. quite true, i'm the 2nd person, i prefer driving without a car in front of me, n not blocking me, so that i can drive according to my speed.. in working place, not to say i like to be alone during work, but if i know how to do the job, i prefer in charge n work on it all by myself until i finish it, then only allow input from other people, i dun prefer other people giving idea or helping me up in the mist of my job, shld be giving me all the requirement and material b4 the job, and let me finish it. and that's y i started off my business by myself. =)

* but who prefer driving with a car in front??