Moving On

3 more days i'm leaving my company, am leaving this "entertainment" industry. I never surprise that people around me were surprised at my decision, especially my department head, he couldn believe it, i guess is either my acting is way too good, or my performance is too good to leave.

i'm not only changing my job, but industry. from an informal environment to a formal environment. i just felt like i've been playing around quite sometimes, is time to settle down for a real job, hahaha!! aint I working all this while?? i dunno why, i just had this kinda feeling.

because of the new job, i gotta force myself to go shopping, i bought a trouser, three blouses, one skirt, one cardigan, a coat and a dress, amazing! never have I bought so many except CNY.

cant wait to start new job, because of those new cloths.. >=p

my new cloths.. oh by the way, i so heart this peter pan collar blouse, it's so sweet~

* Gonna write a post on how great is God whom provide this job for me, and my "new life" with "new cloths" (soon to be revealed)

Is Time To Change

ohda, i cut my hair, long waited new style, i was either no money or dunno what to cut, finally potongkan sama dia, cuz i was too bored with my long styleless hair..

my sis was too free, and capture the process..

took a pic of my long hair before cutting it.. never expect it turned out so nice.. ^^

before and after.. still look nice in whichever hair style.. *ahem* >=p

By God's Grace

Is been a while i've not blogging.. i was busying for my job then now is for my online boutique, i'm getting into it and like what i'm doing, and thus much effort and commitment has putting in.

I really thank God for what He has done for me, for my blogshop, all this while, my blogshop is been reviewed by online fashion reviewer whenever there is new arrival or sale or promotion. but this time something is out of the norm. i received an email from Remaja about 2 weeks ago, only 3 short sentences of email:

"Hai I’m fara from magazine REMAJA. I ada feature your online butik dalam REMAJA tau..jgn lupa beli k!"

my respond was: "wth.. dun understand" i think my bm is bad, gotta read again. then i was like.. -> >_<

can't believe that! i quickly reply with my joy to this editor of Remaja (i guess she is) and she even bought her favorite dress from me. haha!!

I wanna thank God for this is because there are plenty of blogshops, and many are more famous and unique product than mine but I was picked! nothing but God's grace.

Featured in Remaja July Issue

Celebrating Mine While Celebrating His..

celebrated our birthday together tis year, due to his work busyness.. nothing much to say, but again, sweet~~ =p

short tongue, failed!

obviously, this is our dinner..

blessed birthday to u and me...

* shld have more photos of my bday coming up, from my sis' hp..

So Deep In Me

when u leave, I couldn't sleep

Thinking so deep, when will we meet?

So much you are the one i miss..

mm.. tis is wat i posted on kb's facebook, it took so much courage to post tis "bulu naik" so-called poem.. all bcuz i'm so appreciate the time he spent wit me out of his bz working schedule, he dun even have enuf sleep..

Tensionsss++

next week is gonna be my tension week, yes, very tension is bcuz:-

1. i need to squeeze my brain for my job and rush for it, it's boring~ *whisper* but i really thank God when i dunno how to do, i asked God and He gave me the picture/word for my job, then things seems work accordingly
2. i need to go for ultrasound check up, cuz i felt something wrong wit my chest.. err! =(
3. waiting for reply from R&H, they said they gonna reply me after 2 weeks, means tis week is the "due date", i'm so earnestly waiting for their reply cuz i'm really interested in it..

tension~ pressure~

Though of the Day 8

到了这个地步还不能和我好好地沟通，instead of 生你的气, 我应该可怜你吧，毕竟你的全职就是要和别人沟通. 要和我说的话又不敢对着我说,我说的话你又不要听..
我的新任牧师, 为了事奉的着想，你是不是该对每一个会友(包括我在内)都有良好的沟通和关系?

Though of the Day 7: Needed to Change

never felt so nervous b4 compare to last time, may be bcuz after baby told me how well known they are, how pro they are and how his fren gone thru all tis..

at first, during the test i felt like i'm taking an exam tat i didn prepare well, then when i know wat is the purpose i'm here, i told myself i must try my very best and pray for God's help.. so i put myself into the test given, and i able to do it, thou i wasn sure if i was correct but i did my best, n they shld know i dun have experience in tis as long as the concept is right..

during interview, i just felt God was giving me strength and confident to answer all questions, thanks to sis and baby for giving tips, i was even amazed at how i answered and behaved.. thank God, You always there for me in any situation..

i wanna get tis, i really wish to, and i wanna move on and leave where i am rite now.. during the test, i didn feel frustrated when i wasn sure how to do it, instead, i wanna overcome it and hope tat one day i will be able to handle it well when i'm assigned to do tis..

Additional Holiday

after long cny holiday, we i tend to be very lazy, cuz i wan more holiday!! thank God, dunno who set the holiday on 26th feb, so we have 1 more holiday on tis fri.. uhu!! =p

so i went out wit kb in the morning, then go shopping, lunch and lepaking and watch movie at his hse.. a simple dating schedule, it will be lovely and sweet for who u being with.. ^^

we went to Pet's Wonderland, The Curve, n saw this creature, a pair of long and thin legs, short hand, body like hamster, we were so wonder wat it is, then kb asked the staff there then only know it's Australia's kangaroo.. >_<>

after long period of squeezing my head to spend money in Guardian (n oso not to waste money just for the hippo), finally i got this wit half price, RM18.90, the best part is i didn fork out a single to cent buy tis, cuz kb bough it for me.. *happy*

try to have same look.. ^^

"mr. hippo, welcome to our family, u r my 3rd one from kb.."

Test Your Working Attitude

tis morning radio 988 shared a psychology test, "do you prefer driving on the road with a car in front of you or no car at all?"

this test is to explain what is your attitude in your working place, the explanation is:

if u prefer driving on the road with a car in front of u, u r such a person that need a guidance in ur career (or may b in life too), so that u have a target or goal to achieve and u will perform better with a guidance.. n when there's no car in front of u, u may tend to slow down or feel uneasy.

if u prefer driving alone, no car in front of u, so that u can drive freely, then u r such a person that prefer working alone, handling a project or a job alone, so that u can think n decide everything on ur own freely, even if there's any problem occur, u will bear the responsibility urself.

mm.. quite true, i'm the 2nd person, i prefer driving without a car in front of me, n not blocking me, so that i can drive according to my speed.. in working place, not to say i like to be alone during work, but if i know how to do the job, i prefer in charge n work on it all by myself until i finish it, then only allow input from other people, i dun prefer other people giving idea or helping me up in the mist of my job, shld be giving me all the requirement and material b4 the job, and let me finish it. and that's y i started off my business by myself. =)

* but who prefer driving with a car in front??

During Valentine's Celebration

when me n kb heading for our valentine's dinner at Garden, i saw my former college mate.. as usual, after greeting, we shall introduce the one beside us.. unexpectedly, when i intro kb to my college mate, i paused for about 5 secs.. cuz i forgotten kb's name.. =p

dinner at Alexis, Garden, the food there so so only, no variety..=/

i was wearing tis new dress from zara, quite sexy huh? =p then only i realize tis is "too sexy" for malaysian, many ppl was looking at me, i wonder is tis too sexy or kua jiong, to me, it's normal lo..

when i touch up this pic, this objest seems so rite to end our celebration

*he said, there's no gal wearing such way for him b4.. aww~~ <3

Though of the Day 6

may b i'm too into it that's y created so much argument lately, shld i pull out a little bit? or bcuz of the decision that i've made?

Shut Up!

this morning when i woke up, i was thinking y my sis so quiet today, normally even she wake up first, but she stil wanna talk, cuz she tot i woke up dy, then....

"so early wake up already wan?" my sis asked

"....." kept quiet as i was brushing teeth

"good la, i can talk now.." my sis said

"what the... " said in my heart and continue brushing teeth

i salute her! she talk whenever her brain is functioning..

Though of the Day 5

如果你是说真的话你一定是很难过和生气. 不管你是说真的还是假的，只要我说出来我们的感情就会受到影响，所以现在闹成这样,不是因为你是说真的还是假，而是我把心底话说出来。我就是这样，时常忍不住气，非要说出口不可. 我其实很想你向我解释清楚，说多一点也不难吧，如果是真的话，那不要让我误会你啊。因为你的理由真的很难另人相信。

I Feel Good~ da da da da da da..

yesterday went for printing for company, an uncle there asked me:

"你还没有放学啊？"
(ur class is not over yet?)

"嗯..我是做工的" i said
(err.. i'm working..)

i didn know i look so young.. >=p

Aknowledgement of Your Love

here i wanna say thank you to my sweet baby, for putting effort of fetching me to work at late night n fetch me back.. ur patience is touching me, ur care n love is more than i expected and more than a word could express.. i'm sorry if i make u angry or sad or worried, or even dunno when u r caring me.. <3 ya.. *hugz*


*n sorry for causing u kena saman *whispering*

Thought of the Day 4: Late Night Work & Love

thou it seems not worth doing it, i think baby oso thinks that it's not worth it, going so far away to do the job at late night wit little payment.. but for me it's stil ok le, cuz i can learn while doing it.. editing trailer is diff, there's way of doing it, making it impressive, emotional n yet, not telling the story.. is not done yet, stil have to go back n do.. 

b4 i leave office, i wanted to tell jay about it, but it was too rush, hopefully tmr i can tell him, not sure how will he respond..

i'm so tired, but still wanna write something here.. when i look at baby in car, i felt so warm n touched, he waited for my call n fetch me back, a patience tat i never expect from him or any guy, it was 230am.. is too late to be awake.. i'm so blessed to have u.. =)

Thought of the Day 3

After long conversation (or probably an argument), finally i could able to speak out the juice of it, or the point:

[11:59] -=*grace*=-: may b i need more advice n not keep been asked to try tis n tat..

[12:00] -=*grace*=-: i need to know where to go..
[12:00] -=*grace*=-: not trying so much but dunno where to go..
[12:00] -=*grace*=-: there r tons of vacancy
[12:00] -=*grace*=-: but no direction, all tis r useless..

Thought of the Day 2: Change

i really never expect i can change so much since yest, n i nvr expect i wil experience God in such a way.. normally changes/breakthrough take place is during a conference or a church camp, something like that, but tis happen during sunday service. 
surrender, being holy is all i need to do, i cried, i shouted and i shake, how long will i b shaking, it nvr stop, repent, quickly repent, surrender, quickly surrender.. a touch tat i nvr experience b4..
n now i know i'm changed, the peace n joy flowing in me, i cannot worry, i cannot sin anymore.. at least should do wat i know.. sins is what God cannot accept at all, i felt the resistance of sins, it is so conflict to holy..
right now, i dunno wat is gonna happen when i chose to be obedient, surely blessings will be overflowing.. but will i lose something while the blessings are on it's way?
i need u to walk wit me as i'm doing wat is right, n not seeing me differently as if i'm wrong..

Thought of the Day 1: Miss Chan

虽然不是很多人爱和miss chan说话聊天，可是她的辞职还是很突然，至少对我来说是很突然。我想很多人还是不习惯她的不在吧，她此终在公司做了十多年，是一个非常勤劳的员工，虽然有时候话多了一点，长气了一点，不过对公司和员工还是有利无害。

Good Opportunity

i really never expect i can join chic pop street market, it's an happening bazaar/street market in town, when i was informed that response from vendors have been overwhelming, i need to wait for reply which i know i wont be have any chance but i was already happy, at least they revert back to me and take me into consideration cuz people who joint this event previously are famous or special online seller that sell unique fashion items, and is hardly to be able to join as vendor. Anyhow, they manage to reserve a booth for me, tis is really an opportunity to build up my business.. =)

Able to join threadzoo bazaar, as well as chic pop 

First Year

First year instead of 1 year anniversary, cuz i'm expecting my long run wit him.. before 14Jan, i was planning and preparing valentine's day offer for my online boutique, then i was thinking y not i do something for him for our special day oso, so wrote him a so-called "love letter"

4 pieces in sequence, last one written with my feeling toward him all this while.. aww~~ so sweet.. =p

wrapped in a box, then put inside plastic bag, in case it get dust after long time, then putting in a small paper bag and gave him.. (long gas~)

may be i should upload my "love letter" later? >_< then tis post is gonna be goose bump post..

these are the posts about us:

1. A post that started our conversation after our first met:
    New Babe
2. Started to have the feeling on him:
    Truth Waited To Be Told
3. After Confession and wait for the right time:
    等
    Back To Home , Not Alone
    Keeping A Distance
    等 之 没有承诺的承诺
    Mixture Feeling
    等 之 Sometimes
4. Fulfilling my promise of making sushi for him:
    Sushi Queen
5. Struggling:
    take up the courage.. to make a mistake?
6. Still waiting:
    等 之 那一天
7. The day has come:
    N/A

ofcuz there are more post after we started our relationship. as conclusion, i'm glad and blessed that i have him wit me. =)

Would You Take Out Your Cross?

such a "nice" day i had today..

as usual, do devotion in the morning, asking myself, wat to pray today, as i already prayed for my own personal needs yest, so i decided to be "holy" today, i prayed for my country, Malaysia, since there are so many sad and disappointing issue going on..

going to office, nothing much to do, not as much as b4, so logged on fb, found out the news tat my fren posted, Malaysian church fire-bombed ahead of Muslim protests. i nvr expect malaysia wil happen tis kinda protest and everyone has been talking bout tis n i was told tat take out any christian sticker or rosaries hanging in the car, cuz rumour spreading says tat these people smashing the cars with all these things. so my reaction was, "is tat serious?" so me n frens were talking bout is over msn n sms, oso wit KB, and i asked KB "so u planned to take out your cross?" (there's a cross hanging infront of his car window). suddenly this question tat i asked, stunned myself,

"would you take out your cross?"

after a while, i received a sms from Hotlink

"adakah and faham mengenai koncep 1 Malaysia? Taip 1M C utk Ya, 1M D utk..."

i was like.. tis is really hilarious, tat i receive such a sms at tis moment. tat's y i said, today is really a nice day to me, everything going on in the flow.. -_-

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the first movie i ever rated 5 stars! why?

b4 watching it, i saw the trailer n making, it didn really impress me n make me wanna watch it, cuz i dun like alien kinda movie, too animated, nor no story based movie.. but due to the director and many ppl r giving good comment, moreover, KB was so wish to watch..

we watched 3D version. it was AWESOME!

nice 3D, (not like those old tradition green and red), it stands out the character or focused object, makes u feel like u r one of them and very good animation/production.. good casting and good acting, i like Sam Worthington, Zoe Saldana, Michelle Rodriguez, Sigourney Weaver, Stephen Lang.. good story telling, wit the editing instead of long dialogue, u can feel the heart of these aliens and the beauty of the planet, makes u understand n wana protect them..

according to KB, some ppl said the story is normal, but too me, it's simple yet, special..