Alpha Course in Progress

my church youth and yound adult is going to run Alpha course, we just had our training last sat, oh~~ it was so fun and relax, totally diff from a cell group (anyway, it's not a cell group course).. n i cant wait to have the course in my church.. i believe there will be something great happen.. =)

2nd day of training which was a practical training, we have to take turn to do the sharing, and put in some related drama which is stated in the book (reference material / leader's guide).. haha.. everyone enjoy doing tat, and very open to do watever they need to do.. then at the end the people from this Alpha pray for each of us, i thank God tat He spoke to me and after the prayer, they said i did very well in sharing cuz i'm very dramatic, full of movement, is capturing, and Tim said he can see tat i can be a good speaker, then Winnie said i can b very good in youth community...wau! tis is really encouraging, cuz i feel tat i did really bad and was thinking to give up my ministry, n approach to pastor if there's any better people can serve in youth ministry then just let him/her to take over.. but seems like God stil wan me to involve in youth ministry, if not, God wil not take away all those capable people from tis ministry, n he shld have open up the door for me to go other ministry..

so, i just do watever God wan me to do.. God's will and plan is always the best..

* i'll try to post up every Alpha course event, most probably tis course wil start next month (May), see how God's going to move greatly in my church..=)

Busy Life

i was quite bz since last week, tis mon work til 11pm some more, but i'm very happy! finally i can b bz.. i was so free, not much job in company, i felt tat i'm so useless.. -_- now i can suggest to my boss to increase my salary dy.. haha.. i can handle jobs dy wat, some more my clients said i work fast n nice =D may b bcuz they r good, not fussy.. anyway, i enjoy being bz, n i feel satisfied after i've done a job, n when my client enjoy my video.. =)

* tis mon i was so scared tat i cannot finish my job, it's 1/2 hr video which talk bout 1 event.. oh~ is not easy, n it shldn b like tat, it is very boring to use 1/2 hr to talk bout 1 event.. i find it very hard to do, i cried n prayed.. =p (like tat only i feel better). at the end the video was cut to 8 mins ++ haha.. client very satisfied cuz he oso agree 1/2 hr is super boring..

Yeah~~ Is my b'day~~

today is my birthday!
"who is in the house?!"
"Grace is in the house!"
"who is in the house?!"
"Grace is in the house!"

haha.. tis is wat i got when i was having my dinner at TGIF, thanks to my sis..-_-" actually i was quite shy la, standing on the chair, n "receive the blessing from everyone".. but kinda impressive bday i got..

at first, i got a bit of disappointed cuz i didn receive many greeting msg from frens, compare to last time, seems like not many ppl rmb my bday lo, so i tot may b the day b4, my church youth and young adult celebrate April bday babies dy, so no need to send msg..-_- but then almost reaching 9th April 12am, i received quite a lot of msg n call..haha.. i was quite suprise la, some said like tat only special, cuz they r trying to b the last one to greet me woh, (or forgotten??!, wat a good excuse)

anyway, i was very happy la.. thanks everyone! love ya!

*even the one i admired b4 oso msg me! i was so touched! i tot we were 'ended', cuz i was trying to let go, n stop contacting him, (tot wil lost tis fren lo) but he rmb! for a guy tat can rmb a long time no see fren's bday, is a very good thing huh.. but dun worry, i really let go dy, i'm just here to thank God tat He give me back tis fren, (God, i promise u, i'll wait for the one u prepare for me, u know i handled a list to u dy rite? hehe.. thanks God)

** actually, honestly, and seriously, my bday wish (every year) is hope tat every of my fren can rmb my bday beside my family.. =p

thanks guys!! *muakz*

Surrender To God's Timing

last fri i didnt come to God and spend my time wit Him which i usually have to do. next day, sat, i didn pray b4 i go to youth meeting thou i was suppose to share bible study. next morning, sun, i didn pray b4 i play piano on the stage. tis whole weekend i was terrible.

i was complaing to God last fri due to my career. after work, i drove to a place near my house, i didn straightly go back home, cuz i wanna make sure my tears are dry up then only i back home. when i was driving, i cried, i complaint, i scolded:
"am i not faithful to God?"
"wat have i done? tat caused me in tis kind of situation?"
"obedience bring consequences also?"
i was thinking why ppl around me can get a good job, even those who didn put much efford as i did, but i'm working in such company. nvr deny, i put alots efford in study, i serve God, i put God as my first priority, but y??
as i pray for food as usual, i heard a voice:" y do u stil pray to Him?"
as i wanna prepare my bible study (topic is obedience), i find very heavy to prepare
when my sis ask me bout preparation for sat youth n young adult meeting, i felt heavy to do it, i dun like she ask me so many things, cant i do wat i wanna do now? wat do i get when i do so much of things for Him, is there anyone wil appreciate it?
when i serve on the stage during the sun service, i find no reason to serve n worship Him with the instrument.. i heard "y r u on the stage? y didn u prepare lyrics slide?" i felt heavy n guilty..

y was i so evil tis whole weekend? i knew God is not wat i tot, but i just felt His presence and love is so far from me... i hate Him, but i really dun dare to leave Him, i dun dare to deny Him bcuz i know if i leave Him, i'm nothing, i've nothing..
yesterday nite (sun nite), i came back to Him, i cried, i complaint, i prayed...

so tis morning, i opened up the email sent by Teh Eng Chuan, who always forward christian mail to me n ppl around me. title is "Trusting God's Timing"
and i surrendered.. surrendered to God's timing..
sorry God..