I'm Transparent

i dun usually gossip or talk bad about people in my blog, but some one is testing my patience n level of forgiveness, i've been "forgiving" him (yes, is him) since 7-8 years ago, i'm proud of myself cuz i didn gila infront of him, behaving immature infront of him, scold him (as i did b4 to my fren during my secondary school =p) or leave the church for wat he has been behaving..
for some reason, he wont communicate wit me, except some information he needs to give, my existence is transparent, watever happen, he wil talk or discuss wit everyone except me, n when i talk, he ignore, as if like "do watever u wan la".. wat more bout making decision, if the decision relate to me, so wat? he maDe the decision, n INFORM me, opps! he didn even inform me, he just do watever he wan, cuz i'm transparent..

bcm student (the "loohur"), i'm better than u, cuz i treat u as how i treat other ppl, cuz i'm (trying my best) forgiving u no matter wat u've done, cuz my focus is in God's work but u? i dun wanna judge u as i'm not allowed, please forgive me for wat i've done tat might cause u behaving like tis..

i love u cuz God says "love your enemy"..


* i'm sorry for the post, but tis wat i've been facing in my life, dun ask me to approach him, i approached him n times, outcome is he said nothing woh..
** pray for us..

Decision Making

i'm so excited about the decision tat i'm going to make, cant tell now until i officially start (or may b not starting).. i really hope i can do it n is wat i capable of, n now i'm preparing everything, hope it wil b smooth, n most of all, hope tis is God's will and He wil b wit me n guide me..

* i thank my sis n my mum n my monkey whom supporting me tis..

BSB 2: Same or Change

the reason of blogging for the sake of blogging (bsb) is bcuz monkey asked me y didn i write blog.. mm.. cuz i'm lazy to write n i'm not inspired to write anything.. =p

let's talk bout my situation now, now is morning, sitting infront of computer, looking out the window, ah~ another day, ppl tend to complain or sighing tat everyday is a routine day, everyday doing the same thing, sounded boring.. i guess they bored of their job or bored of their studies, or stil figuring out wat is their dream/ambition tat's y no vision nor target to archive.. last week i was inspired by a thought (or could b God spoken to me?),

when i woke up,

everything is still the same, nothing is changed

my room, my body, n even the smell around me..

walking out of my room, my parent still the same,

they r doing morning routine work..

"coming back for dinner tonite?" mum asked

when i get ready to work,

have to choose wat cloth to wear, how i wish my office provide uniform,

then heading to same company, waiting for same job..

everything remain as usual, i'm still having all my life n love one,

they are still alive, n healthy

i'm not unemployed, i stil can earn for my living..

how many ppl out there r homeless..

how many ppl's life has changed suddenly due to disaster or accident..

i believe God will bless me n my future, and i just do my best for everything

i dun expect tis kinda "change" but i chose to appreciate them n b contended.

is good to remain the same in certain area..