Decisive, Not Rebellious

during lunch time, chatting wit my colleague, about education, i told my colleague i almost ended up in malay school cuz my parent wanted me to enter malay school, but i told my parent i dun wan cuz i can't speak bm and eng, how can i mix wit malay or eng speaking people, most of them cant even speak chinese. by the way, i'm chinese educated which means i can read and write chinese *proud* (i'm a chinese ok? *eye blink*) but my colleague is not, cuz he was brought to a malay school since he was very young. then my colleague was amazed by how i responded to my parent
"so rebellious" he jokingly said
"haha.. no, is decisive.."
"but you were so small, how old were u tat time?"
"mm... 7 years old"

is tis consider rebellious? i nvr tot of tat until my colleague said, mm... i think is decisive, not rebellious, tat time my parent was giving me option, not instruction.. haha..

DLS 1 Completed

Proudly present, Deeper Life Seminar 1 certificate after 9 weeks of attending classes... 2 more seminar to go..

Stressful Sunday

sunday nap is veeeery precious to me, i will rather take nap after church instead of going anywhere else..
just like last sunday, i was like a floating body without soul, i lost to my sis and kah heng for bowling, i have to say: "i'm loser" (x3) -____-## and i forgot to take my parking ticket after i paid. i ran to the auto pay machine which was quite a distance from where our car stop, while i was running to the machine, i prayed to God tat person wouldn take my ticket, i dun wanna pay extra money just bcuz i left ticket in the machine, and i need to spend a lot for coming months.. suddenly i heard a voice, "a moi, awak tinggal ticket kah?" i look at the car, the driver took out a paid ticket, "ya, saya punya, trima kasih, tq!"
i was so relief n thank God, He kept the ticket in a kind person's hand and i able to meet the driver...

* wong kah heng has no compassion at all, when i back to the car, he said "good la u, get to play bowling and jogging"
yeah rite!

Clock Wise or Anti-Clock Wise

always rmb when u take out ur car tyre, you shld unscrew it anti-clock wise, like how u open ur mineral water bottle, or open ur water tab.
just really dunno y last week after sponspor sponsee (something like cell group for new believer) and yam cha, while on the way back, my sis' car tyre punctured, we all (me, my sis, shelly, jin sun and andrew) tried our superb best wit our tyre punctured experience to unscrew the tyre CLOCK WISE! we called fren for help, see if they have any equipment to unscrew it, CLOCK WISE, 2 of us even jump on the screwdriver, CLOCK WISE (we thought y the screws were so tight, it must be screwed wit driller).. -_-
thank God shelly called her dad for assistance, her dad said, the back tyre shld be anti-clock wise, where the front one is clock wise, dunno y it's diff direction, but it' really works! -___-##
while on our way back home, after we realize many things r open in anti-clock wise, all of us felt so tak puas hati, how can we insist to turn clock wise, nvr thought of the other way round, we were so "smart"..

* sometimes we thought we know everything but sometimes we dunno wat we need to know..

Blog Clarification

i think someone is confused with my blog.
the link at the side of my blog:
"Personal Relationship with God"
"I would like to accept Christ"
is actually for those who read my blog want to accept Christ then he/she can click on it to know more, not i (Grace Kok) wan to accept Christ and wrote on my blog, so sorry if i confuse anyone but really appreciate for those who concern the non-believer.. =)

not confuse ppl, i changed it to:
"Would you like to have a personal relationship with God?"
"Yes, I do"

if there's anyone really wanna know God more or accept Jesus as their personal savior or any prayer request, do let me know.

Real or Dream :: 080408

when i online, checking out my facebook (as usual), there was an event invitation, so i clicked on it, it was a birthday celebration for xxx on 7th April at 10pm in one of the italian restaurant at The Curve, invited by one of my fren, guests tat attending tis event r all known, wierd! but quite interesting.
as it's written, no need to prepare birthday present, cuz they will prepare, so i dressed up nicely and went to the place.the restaurant is nice, i like the environment, but i've no idea to go for which table, surprisingly there was a sign board showing me to which table i'm suppose to go..
"huh? it's treasure hunt or wat?" said in my heart
as i turn to the last turning at right, i saw my sis n all my best frens there, smiling at me and said
"welcome to ur bday party!" haha.. i know it, i shld know it..
it was really surprise me, really appreciate for their afford, bringing me to my favorite restaurant, gather together for my bday. But it was not end yet, as we having our dinner, chit-chating. at 12am, they sang me bday song, while they were singing, one of them said
"see who else is here?" i saw one shadow coming to me from the kitchen, i cant see clearly who was tat due to the dim light, as he came nearer.. n nearer..
"oh my~" said in my heart
"happy bday!" he said wit a cake holding with his rite hand.
is he! a person tat dun even rmb my bday, n now he is standing infront of me. i cant b too excited (apparently), if not, they will know i like him.. but y is he the one tat doing such suprise to me? i mean appear at 12am wit a cake?? i didn care so much, cuz i was too happy tat he was there for me, so i just said
"thank u"
then again, he put on a wording tag on the cake with his left hand, the wording was "can u be my gal fren?"
i was like... >_<
"r u kidding me? today is my bday, dun fool me k.."
he look at me, pause a while, with a bit shy n sincere smile
"i'm serious.."
"mm.." i look at the cake
"come on, dun b shy, tis is so not u! u like him rite?" the rest said
"ofcuz i wish... i would love to..." i said softly to him
"so yes or not?" he asked softly n shyly
i pause a while, i know he is not simply making fun type of ppl, he is shy shy little boy so i said
"yes!"
"uhu!" the rest of my frens were more happy than me, they clapped, they laugh n said
"we settle a couple, haha.."
i then hug him
"i love u"
"i love u too"
but wait! "come on, dun b shy, tis is so not u! u like him rite?" <- how did they know i like him?? i stare at my sis....

-the end-

tis is my dream, so sweet~ dream always nice n perfect, cuz it's not real n it's created by us..

however, out of expectation, the real story is more touching, God's plan is always better than my dream.. mm.. how shld i start..
i would like to thank my frens tat sending me greeting msg and call, especially those tat i nvr expect since 12am til 11pm. and my dad, he sent me msg! -> "生日快乐" so sweet~
at nite, i had dinner wit my family at Piccolo Mondo (not sure spelled correctly), food and service not bad, everyone seems enjoy it, as i always thankful for, not the food nor anything, but is the moment we spend together.. during the dinner, someone called me, who always forgotten my bday! haha.. he not only wish me happy bday, but he sang and played guitar on the phone! i was like.. T_T (i said in my heart, "grace, dun cry, dun cry") i was so touched for wat he has done! may be tis is wat he usually do to his fren, but wat i only know is i really enjoy when he sing (actually i think i'm suppose to sing tat song he sang instead of him? =p), he sing and play very well, gotta acknowledge him.. haha.. after he called, then my god bro called, he sounded more happy than me when i pick up the phone, we didn talk very long cuz of line prob (he called from s'pore), but i really appreciate it, he always care for me for i'm his sis..
after dinner, i went Baywatch for 2nd round, oops! i mean i follow my sis yam cha, didn know she plan surprise gathering for me (pretend la). when i reach there, it's actually surprise me was the ppl who came, some of them i really nvr expect they turn up, long time no see fren, bz fren, lazy fren n fren's fren.. haha.. i'm so touched and thankful for their effort, i'll nvr forget tis memorible and wonderful bday tat was given by them, especially my sis who plan tis, she called most of my close frens just to give me a surprise.. thanks so much.. *muakz* love ya..



1st round: dinner wit family

2nd round, thanks guys..

3rd round was in William mamak..

* i did prayed for my bday, pray tat i'll have a nice bday celebration =p n God answered

24 years ago - 8/4/1984

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What Does Love Mean

got tis from a forwarded email,

A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds, "What does love mean?" The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined. See what you think:

"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love."
Rebecca- age 8

"When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth."
Billy - age 4 (tis is so sweet, name is something unique represent us)

"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other."
Karl - age 5

"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs."
Chrissy - age 6

"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired."
Terri - age 4

"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK."
Danny - age 7

"Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss"
Emily - age 8

"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen."
Bobby - age 7

"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate,"
Nikka - age 6 (tis is so Christ-like love)

"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday."
Noelle - age 7 (tell u wit action, sweet~)

"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well."
Tommy - age 6

"Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken."
Elaine-age 5

"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford."
Chris - age 7

"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day."
Mary Ann - age 4

"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones."
Lauren - age 4

"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you." (what an image)
Karen - age 7 (fast movement?)

"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross."
Mark - age 6

"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget."
Jessica - age 8

And the final one -- Author and lecturer Leo Buscaglia once talked about a contest he was asked to judge. The purpose of the contest was to find the most caring child. The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbor was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife. Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentleman's yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there. When his Mother asked what he had said to the neighbor, the little boy said, "Nothing, I just helped him cry"

- the end -

to me, love is when u say something to someone especially ur advice, something said out of ur heart, n he/she remembered. he/she is happy when he/she see u smile.
love is basically u do wat u think love is
to God, "Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres."1 Corinthians 13:4-7
it summarize all