Tensionsss++

next week is gonna be my tension week, yes, very tension is bcuz:-

1. i need to squeeze my brain for my job and rush for it, it's boring~ *whisper* but i really thank God when i dunno how to do, i asked God and He gave me the picture/word for my job, then things seems work accordingly
2. i need to go for ultrasound check up, cuz i felt something wrong wit my chest.. err! =(
3. waiting for reply from R&H, they said they gonna reply me after 2 weeks, means tis week is the "due date", i'm so earnestly waiting for their reply cuz i'm really interested in it..

tension~ pressure~

Though of the Day 8

到了这个地步还不能和我好好地沟通，instead of 生你的气, 我应该可怜你吧，毕竟你的全职就是要和别人沟通. 要和我说的话又不敢对着我说,我说的话你又不要听..
我的新任牧师, 为了事奉的着想，你是不是该对每一个会友(包括我在内)都有良好的沟通和关系?

Though of the Day 7: Needed to Change

never felt so nervous b4 compare to last time, may be bcuz after baby told me how well known they are, how pro they are and how his fren gone thru all tis..

at first, during the test i felt like i'm taking an exam tat i didn prepare well, then when i know wat is the purpose i'm here, i told myself i must try my very best and pray for God's help.. so i put myself into the test given, and i able to do it, thou i wasn sure if i was correct but i did my best, n they shld know i dun have experience in tis as long as the concept is right..

during interview, i just felt God was giving me strength and confident to answer all questions, thanks to sis and baby for giving tips, i was even amazed at how i answered and behaved.. thank God, You always there for me in any situation..

i wanna get tis, i really wish to, and i wanna move on and leave where i am rite now.. during the test, i didn feel frustrated when i wasn sure how to do it, instead, i wanna overcome it and hope tat one day i will be able to handle it well when i'm assigned to do tis..