Along The Journey

Proposal/Christmas Gift

2011-12-27T22:23:00.006+08:00

Long time never blog, password almost forgotten some more.

I've got a very big gift from KB, instead of showing it in FB which is what people are doing now days, I rather blog it here.

Sigma lense 17-70mm
2.8-4.0

Me and KB went for recce for pre wedding shoot place at KL today. Before that, he told me he wants to go to a special place, i was thinking may be some special place for recce which i dont know, or he wants to propose to me in this "special place"?? ha! i think to much, impossible.. said in my heart.
after we went to bank and withdrew our money, he drove to this very old shopping mall at KL which until now i still dont know what it's called, i only know that YL (famous camera trading shop) is inside this shopping mall.
KB: "familiar with this place?"
me: "mm.. YL is here isnt it?"
then he smile. and said wanna buy lense for me, which is the one i aiming to buy years later. i was kinda surprise of what he planned to do because i just told him a week ago and i really didnt expect him to buy, cause it's too expensive. he said this will be my wedding gift kah, christmas gift kah and birthday gift. ah~ to me, whatever.. i just love the gift. =)
day before i even asked him, what he did that is showing love towards me,he seems answering me crap, i knew, he dont know how to answer me, he just can't express well.. well, for me to find out i guess.. =) <3

New Kawaii

2011-08-13T00:47:00.005+08:00

My first and new ride. ^^
Miss it more than missing KB when i just got it.. =p

Experienced (big) Miracle (again)

2011-08-12T23:24:00.005+08:00

Picture speaks the miracle

i like when someone ask me,

"How do you managed to change industry?"
or
"How do you get this (current) job?"
or
"How do you managed to change industry??! i tried but i never get that" <- like the most, but i can't answer this question, as i assumed this person was expecting answer on how well i did to get the job. NO! i didn do anything nor how well am I but how wonderful is God!

Before i answer, i always have that kinda wander look, rolling my eye and smiling. I don't prefer to explain from the time i seeking job until i got over my interview, that's just a process which is quite boring. Instead, i wanna say "miracle" and thanking God in my heart.

Since I started working in my current company, whatever that i've gone through is obviously reminds me of what i was searching for, thinking of and wanted.
i just got to know what actuary do last year, KB told me actuary earn a lot but is hard and it takes a lot of effort to become an actuary. I was wondered what they do and makes them earn a lot (i was eagerly to know all kinds of job as i was planning to change job), then he roughly said something to do with maths. i was like "what??" i like maths a lot but never know what job is related to maths. So i research on this career and even plan to change to this industry IF i'm allowed to.

This is the note i prepared when i wanted to go to UTAR to find out more Actuarial Science but ended up going back home. It's impossible to let go my job and start a course from the beginning (there is no part time course for actuarial degree). Some more the degree can't guarantee a job for me after i graduate. My colleague told me nowdays a lot of fresh graduate can't find job, because the "supply" is more than "demand".

i'm grateful to God for what He has done in my life. it's all began from KB. On last year, KB suddenly started a conversation with his brother (all this while they seldom talk). He asked his brother if there is vacancy for admin job (something that i can do) in his company and he said yes. =D
after the interview, only then i realized my department is actuarial department. =D
after i working sometimes, i realized i (think) can take exam and even claim for exam. =D

"...With men it is impossible, but not with God; for with God all things are possible."
Mark 10:27
"Take delight in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart."
Psalm 37:4

the most grateful thing is how i experience God through this incident, not only providing this job but He is leading me in my career. there shall be part 2 on how i gone through all the difficulties with Christ. =)

* wanted to write this post for long time, finally i got the time. =p

Chic Pop 6 + Miracle

2011-01-30T21:52:00.004+08:00

As I was heading to chic pop after breakfast, the sky was actually getting dark, it's kinda freak me out, cuz i can't miss this bazaar as this bazaar is the most expensive bazaar i've ever joint, and i plan to clear my old stocks. Thus, i prayed...

The picture speaks the miracle, there was nice weather through out the event, and was super crowded. visitors were here and lined up for registration even before the event starts. the amount i earned on that day equals to total of 3 days i've earned at MOFEW.

I nearly miss this bazaar as there was no reply from the organizer, cuz i late giving confirmation. at the end, they called me up for payment. =)

Moving On

2010-12-08T15:30:00.003+08:00

3 more days i'm leaving my company, am leaving this "entertainment" industry. I never surprise that people around me were surprised at my decision, especially my department head, he couldn believe it, i guess is either my acting is way too good, or my performance is too good to leave.

i'm not only changing my job, but industry. from an informal environment to a formal environment. i just felt like i've been playing around quite sometimes, is time to settle down for a real job, hahaha!! aint I working all this while?? i dunno why, i just had this kinda feeling.

because of the new job, i gotta ~~force myself to~~ go shopping, i bought a trouser, three blouses, one skirt, one cardigan, a coat and a dress, amazing! never have I bought so many except CNY.

cant wait to start new job, because of those new cloths.. >=p

my new cloths.. oh by the way, i so heart this peter pan collar blouse, it's so sweet~

* Gonna write a post on how great is God whom provide this job for me, and my "new life" with "new cloths" (soon to be revealed)

Is Time To Change

2010-12-08T15:00:00.003+08:00

ohda, i cut my hair, long waited new style, i was either no money or dunno what to cut, finally potongkan sama dia, cuz i was too bored with my long styleless hair..

my sis was too free, and capture the process..

took a pic of my long hair before cutting it.. never expect it turned out so nice.. ^^

before and after.. still look nice in whichever hair style.. *ahem* >=p

By God's Grace

2010-07-07T14:43:00.004+08:00

Is been a while i've not blogging.. i was busying for my job then now is for my online boutique, i'm getting into it and like what i'm doing, and thus much effort and commitment has putting in.

I really thank God for what He has done for me, for my blogshop, all this while, my blogshop is been reviewed by online fashion reviewer whenever there is new arrival or sale or promotion. but this time something is out of the norm. i received an email from Remaja about 2 weeks ago, only 3 short sentences of email:

"Hai I’m fara from magazine REMAJA. I ada feature your online butik dalam REMAJA tau..jgn lupa beli k!"

my respond was: "wth.. dun understand" i think my bm is bad, gotta read again. then i was like.. -> >_<

can't believe that! i quickly reply with my joy to this editor of Remaja (i guess she is) and she even bought her favorite dress from me. haha!!

I wanna thank God for this is because there are plenty of blogshops, and many are more famous and unique product than mine but I was picked! nothing but God's grace.

Featured in Remaja July Issue

Celebrating Mine While Celebrating His..

2010-04-27T14:59:00.005+08:00

celebrated our birthday together tis year, due to his work busyness.. nothing much to say, but again, sweet~~ =p

short tongue, failed!

obviously, this is our dinner..

blessed birthday to u and me...

* shld have more photos of my bday coming up, from my sis' hp..

So Deep In Me

2010-04-22T14:26:00.002+08:00

when u leave, I couldn't sleep

Thinking so deep, when will we meet?

So much you are the one i miss..

mm.. tis is wat i posted on kb's facebook, it took so much courage to post tis "bulu naik" so-called poem.. all bcuz i'm so appreciate the time he spent wit me out of his bz working schedule, he dun even have enuf sleep..

Tensionsss++

2010-03-14T23:59:00.002+08:00

next week is gonna be my tension week, yes, very tension is bcuz:-

1. i need to squeeze my brain for my job and rush for it, it's boring~ *whisper* but i really thank God when i dunno how to do, i asked God and He gave me the picture/word for my job, then things seems work accordingly
2. i need to go for ultrasound check up, cuz i felt something wrong wit my chest.. err! =(
3. waiting for reply from R&H, they said they gonna reply me after 2 weeks, means tis week is the "due date", i'm so earnestly waiting for their reply cuz i'm really interested in it..

tension~ pressure~

Though of the Day 8

2010-03-06T23:19:00.007+08:00

到了这个地步还不能和我好好地沟通，instead of 生你的气, 我应该可怜你吧，毕竟你的全职就是要和别人沟通. 要和我说的话又不敢对着我说,我说的话你又不要听..
我的新任牧师, 为了事奉的着想，你是不是该对每一个会友(包括我在内)都有良好的沟通和关系?

Though of the Day 7: Needed to Change

2010-03-05T13:23:00.011+08:00

never felt so nervous b4 compare to last time, may be bcuz after baby told me how well known they are, how pro they are and how his fren gone thru all tis..

at first, during the test i felt like i'm taking an exam tat i didn prepare well, then when i know wat is the purpose i'm here, i told myself i must try my very best and pray for God's help.. so i put myself into the test given, and i able to do it, thou i wasn sure if i was correct but i did my best, n they shld know i dun have experience in tis as long as the concept is right..

during interview, i just felt God was giving me strength and confident to answer all questions, thanks to sis and baby for giving tips, i was even amazed at how i answered and behaved.. thank God, You always there for me in any situation..

i wanna get tis, i really wish to, and i wanna move on and leave where i am rite now.. during the test, i didn feel frustrated when i wasn sure how to do it, instead, i wanna overcome it and hope tat one day i will be able to handle it well when i'm assigned to do tis..

Additional Holiday

2010-02-26T13:03:00.001+08:00

after long cny holiday, we i tend to be very lazy, cuz i wan more holiday!! thank God, dunno who set the holiday on 26th feb, so we have 1 more holiday on tis fri.. uhu!! =p

so i went out wit kb in the morning, then go shopping, lunch and lepaking and watch movie at his hse.. a simple dating schedule, it will be lovely and sweet for who u being with.. ^^

we went to Pet's Wonderland, The Curve, n saw this creature, a pair of long and thin legs, short hand, body like hamster, we were so wonder wat it is, then kb asked the staff there then only know it's Australia's kangaroo.. >_<>

after long period of squeezing my head to spend money in Guardian (n oso not to waste money just for the hippo), finally i got this wit half price, RM18.90, the best part is i didn fork out a single to cent buy tis, cuz kb bough it for me.. *happy*

try to have same look.. ^^

"mr. hippo, welcome to our family, u r my 3rd one from kb.."

Test Your Working Attitude

2010-02-25T11:31:00.005+08:00

tis morning radio 988 shared a psychology test, "do you prefer driving on the road with a car in front of you or no car at all?"

this test is to explain what is your attitude in your working place, the explanation is:

if u prefer driving on the road with a car in front of u, u r such a person that need a guidance in ur career (or may b in life too), so that u have a target or goal to achieve and u will perform better with a guidance.. n when there's no car in front of u, u may tend to slow down or feel uneasy.

if u prefer driving alone, no car in front of u, so that u can drive freely, then u r such a person that prefer working alone, handling a project or a job alone, so that u can think n decide everything on ur own freely, even if there's any problem occur, u will bear the responsibility urself.

mm.. quite true, i'm the 2nd person, i prefer driving without a car in front of me, n not blocking me, so that i can drive according to my speed.. in working place, not to say i like to be alone during work, but if i know how to do the job, i prefer in charge n work on it all by myself until i finish it, then only allow input from other people, i dun prefer other people giving idea or helping me up in the mist of my job, shld be giving me all the requirement and material b4 the job, and let me finish it. and that's y i started off my business by myself. =)

* but who prefer driving with a car in front??

During Valentine's Celebration

2010-02-24T12:49:00.006+08:00

when me n kb heading for our valentine's dinner at Garden, i saw my former college mate.. as usual, after greeting, we shall introduce the one beside us.. unexpectedly, when i intro kb to my college mate, i paused for about 5 secs.. cuz i forgotten kb's name.. =p

dinner at Alexis, Garden, the food there so so only, no variety..=/

i was wearing tis new dress from zara, quite sexy huh? =p then only i realize tis is "too sexy" for malaysian, many ppl was looking at me, i wonder is tis too sexy or kua jiong, to me, it's normal lo..

when i touch up this pic, this objest seems so rite to end our celebration

*he said, there's no gal wearing such way for him b4.. aww~~ <3

Though of the Day 6

2010-02-13T00:50:00.000+08:00

may b i'm too into it that's y created so much argument lately, shld i pull out a little bit? or bcuz of the decision that i've made?

Shut Up!

2010-02-12T13:16:00.002+08:00

this morning when i woke up, i was thinking y my sis so quiet today, normally even she wake up first, but she stil wanna talk, cuz she tot i woke up dy, then....

"so early wake up already wan?" my sis asked

"....." kept quiet as i was brushing teeth

"good la, i can talk now.." my sis said

"what the... " said in my heart and continue brushing teeth

i salute her! she talk whenever her brain is functioning..

Though of the Day 5

2010-02-12T13:05:00.003+08:00

如果你是说真的话你一定是很难过和生气. 不管你是说真的还是假的，只要我说出来我们的感情就会受到影响，所以现在闹成这样,不是因为你是说真的还是假，而是我把心底话说出来。我就是这样，时常忍不住气，非要说出口不可.我其实很想你向我解释清楚，说多一点也不难吧，如果是真的话，那不要让我误会你啊。因为你的理由真的很难另人相信。

I Feel Good~ da da da da da da..

2010-02-12T12:34:00.006+08:00

yesterday went for printing for company, an uncle there asked me:

"你还没有放学啊？"
(ur class is not over yet?)

"嗯..我是做工的" i said
(err.. i'm working..)

i didn know i look so young.. >=p

Aknowledgement of Your Love

2010-02-05T03:59:00.001+08:00

here i wanna say thank you to my sweet baby, for putting effort of fetching me to work at late night n fetch me back.. ur patience is touching me, ur care n love is more than i expected and more than a word could express.. i'm sorry if i make u angry or sad or worried, or even dunno when u r caring me.. <3 ya.. *hugz*

*n sorry for causing u kena saman *whispering*

Thought of the Day 4: Late Night Work & Love

2010-02-05T03:52:00.000+08:00

thou it seems not worth doing it, i think baby oso thinks that it's not worth it, going so far away to do the job at late night wit little payment.. but for me it's stil ok le, cuz i can learn while doing it.. editing trailer is diff, there's way of doing it, making it impressive, emotional n yet, not telling the story.. is not done yet, stil have to go back n do..

b4 i leave office, i wanted to tell jay about it, but it was too rush, hopefully tmr i can tell him, not sure how will he respond..

i'm so tired, but still wanna write something here.. when i look at baby in car, i felt so warm n touched, he waited for my call n fetch me back, a patience tat i never expect from him or any guy, it was 230am.. is too late to be awake.. i'm so blessed to have u.. =)

Thought of the Day 3

2010-02-04T12:05:00.000+08:00

After long conversation (or probably an argument), finally i could able to speak out the juice of it, or the point:

[11:59] -=*grace*=-: may b i need more advice n not keep been asked to try tis n tat..

[12:00] -=*grace*=-: i need to know where to go..
[12:00] -=*grace*=-: not trying so much but dunno where to go..
[12:00] -=*grace*=-: there r tons of vacancy
[12:00] -=*grace*=-: but no direction, all tis r useless..

Thought of the Day 2: Change

2010-02-01T17:43:00.004+08:00

i really never expect i can change so much since yest, n i nvr expect i wil experience God in such a way.. normally changes/breakthrough take place is during a conference or a church camp, something like that, but tis happen during sunday service.
surrender, being holy is all i need to do, i cried, i shouted and i shake, how long will i b shaking, it nvr stop, repent, quickly repent, surrender, quickly surrender.. a touch tat i nvr experience b4..
n now i know i'm changed, the peace n joy flowing in me, i cannot worry, i cannot sin anymore.. at least should do wat i know.. sins is what God cannot accept at all, i felt the resistance of sins, it is so conflict to holy..
right now, i dunno wat is gonna happen when i chose to be obedient, surely blessings will be overflowing.. but will i lose something while the blessings are on it's way?
i need u to walk wit me as i'm doing wat is right, n not seeing me differently as if i'm wrong..

Thought of the Day 1: Miss Chan

2010-02-01T17:18:00.001+08:00

虽然不是很多人爱和miss chan说话聊天，可是她的辞职还是很突然，至少对我来说是很突然。我想很多人还是不习惯她的不在吧，她此终在公司做了十多年，是一个非常勤劳的员工，虽然有时候话多了一点，长气了一点，不过对公司和员工还是有利无害。

Good Opportunity

2010-01-20T16:43:00.003+08:00

i really never expect i can join chic pop street market, it's an happening bazaar/street market in town, when i was informed that response from vendors have been overwhelming, i need to wait for reply which i know i wont be have any chance but i was already happy, at least they revert back to me and take me into consideration cuz people who joint this event previously are famous or special online seller that sell unique fashion items, and is hardly to be able to join as vendor. Anyhow, they manage to reserve a booth for me, tis is really an opportunity to build up my business.. =)

Able to join threadzoo bazaar, as well as chic pop

First Year

2010-01-20T15:56:00.007+08:00

First year instead of 1 year anniversary, cuz i'm expecting my long run wit him.. before 14Jan, i was planning and preparing valentine's day offer for my online boutique, then i was thinking y not i do something for him for our special day oso, so wrote him a so-called "love letter"

4 pieces in sequence, last one written with my feeling toward him all this while.. aww~~ so sweet.. =p

wrapped in a box, then put inside plastic bag, in case it get dust after long time, then putting in a small paper bag and gave him.. (long gas~)

may be i should upload my "love letter" later? >_< then tis post is gonna be goose bump post..

these are the posts about us:

1. A post that started our conversation after our first met:
   New Babe
2. Started to have the feeling on him:
   Truth Waited To Be Told
3. After Confession and wait for the right time:
   等
   Back To Home , Not Alone
   Keeping A Distance
   等之没有承诺的承诺
   Mixture Feeling
   等之 Sometimes
4. Fulfilling my promise of making sushi for him:
   Sushi Queen
5. Struggling:
   take up the courage.. to make a mistake?
6. Still waiting:
   等之那一天
7. The day has come:
   N/A

ofcuz there are more post after we started our relationship. as conclusion, i'm glad and blessed that i have him wit me. =)

Would You Take Out Your Cross?

2010-01-08T16:16:00.007+08:00

such a "nice" day i had today..

as usual, do devotion in the morning, asking myself, wat to pray today, as i already prayed for my own personal needs yest, so i decided to be "holy" today, i prayed for my country, Malaysia, since there are so many sad and disappointing issue going on..

going to office, nothing much to do, not as much as b4, so logged on fb, found out the news tat my fren posted, Malaysian church fire-bombed ahead of Muslim protests. i nvr expect malaysia wil happen tis kinda protest and everyone has been talking bout tis n i was told tat take out any christian sticker or rosaries hanging in the car, cuz rumour spreading says tat these people smashing the cars with all these things. so my reaction was, "is tat serious?" so me n frens were talking bout is over msn n sms, oso wit KB, and i asked KB "so u planned to take out your cross?" (there's a cross hanging infront of his car window). suddenly this question tat i asked, stunned myself,

"would you take out your cross?"

after a while, i received a sms from Hotlink

"adakah and faham mengenai koncep 1 Malaysia? Taip 1M C utk Ya, 1M D utk..."

i was like.. tis is really hilarious, tat i receive such a sms at tis moment. tat's y i said, today is really a nice day to me, everything going on in the flow.. -_-

Avatar

2010-01-07T12:51:00.005+08:00

the first movie i ever rated 5 stars! why?

b4 watching it, i saw the trailer n making, it didn really impress me n make me wanna watch it, cuz i dun like alien kinda movie, too animated, nor no story based movie.. but due to the director and many ppl r giving good comment, moreover, KB was so wish to watch..

we watched 3D version. it was AWESOME!

nice 3D, (not like those old tradition green and red), it stands out the character or focused object, makes u feel like u r one of them and very good animation/production.. good casting and good acting, i like Sam Worthington, Zoe Saldana, Michelle Rodriguez, Sigourney Weaver, Stephen Lang.. good story telling, wit the editing instead of long dialogue, u can feel the heart of these aliens and the beauty of the planet, makes u understand n wana protect them..

according to KB, some ppl said the story is normal, but too me, it's simple yet, special..

2nd Bazaar with Miracle

2009-12-20T18:00:00.001+08:00

tis is really a miracle...

i joint a contest of getting a free booth in a bazaar, n i got it. when i reach there, it's a shop lot at The Strand, Kota Damansara, the place was quiet, i think it's a new building, n most of the shop lots are empty, i was thinking, "how would this place able to get good business??" anyway, i got the booth for free so nvm..

looking at the banner, it's held at 4th floor.. @_@ i told myself "nvm, free wan, it doesn cost me a lot, just take it as an experience to me" said in my heart.. after a while, the place is like a home, we were chatting among the vendors, n talking to each other how bad is the place (cuz no customer), the organizer oso felt guilty for not doing promotion, cuz it was a sudden decision to do b4 christmas.. if can, i wanted to bring down all my stuff n sell it at ground floor, cuz how would there have any people know there's a bazaar up there? however, i prayed to God, i dun care, wit human, things r impossible, to God, all things are possible, i wanna achieve this amount of sales..

miraculously, in the afternoon, there were people coming in, some were vendor's fren, some were walk in customer, n they bought my cloths! my sales were kept raising up, while other has no sales at all.. wau.. n i sold out more cloth than the first bazaar i joint.. thank God~ ofcuz at the end, some of the vendor did sold out some cloths, but not as many as mine at the time when i pack my stuff and go home..

check out the photos:

christmas bazaar

untitled

2009-12-02T17:35:00.003+08:00

is been a while i have not writing my blog, almost forgotten what font and color i use for my blog =p not to say nothing happen, again i wasn't inspired or lazy to do.. so i written 3 posts sekaligus..

many things happen recently, father of my fren and colleague pass away, fren breaking up wit her bf, colleague having illness which cant be cured, fren's parent having marital problem and so on.. what is all these trying to tell me? before discovering the "truth", at least i should give thanks for wat i have, and not to complain wat is yet to come..

Is Time to be Restored

2009-12-02T16:56:00.007+08:00

yesterday went to fren's graduation, a different kinda graduation, at least to me, it's something different. he graduated from diploma of counseling and bachelor of theology. yes, he soon to be a pastor.

i have once thought of doing full time ministry, being a full time minister or at least a pastor's wife, just to serve God wit all my life. but i know is not by emotion but is by calling. i rmb b4 tis fren of mine entering full time ministry, both of us were very on fire, we were been talking bout how good if is working full time. but who knows, now both of our ways are heading to different direction in terms of career, he is pastor and i'm a video editor, besides that, even our friendship has screwed for some reasons that probably only he knows, not even me... =/

i didn really thought of restoring tis friendship (or would say refuse to) cuz i was really piss off with wat he has done or behaving, until recently, i realize things can be really changed, there are 2 options if we wanna work out with God, a friendship or an enemy. so i chose friendship, i do care for tis friendship, since we knew each other when we were born, no point allowing devil destroy it until end of the world, the good day shall come..

* congratulations, fren

Dog of 2 Weeks

2009-12-02T16:32:00.004+08:00

tis dog no more hanging around my house, we dunno where she went to but according to my dad, he saw her "running away" with other homeless dogs. whatever it is, i wish she will be happy for the rest of her life. she is a very old dog, my mum said she has been forsaken by previous owner, cuz she looks like a fine dog that been adopted before, may b becuz she was sick or too old..

we fed her when she was around, so she becoming 1 of our dog, guarding the house, shaking the tail when we came back, sitting in front of the gate before dinner time..

Recently..

2009-11-11T17:10:00.006+08:00

i've been so bz recently, not only for my job, but oso for my "little business". last month was bz starting off my online business, n getting new cloths and some necessary stuff for bazaar, at the same time, was busying for an event job, after all these, need to rush for another 3 days video edit, oh man~ i was quite exhausted, cuz i was sick like mama oso cannot recognize me, my voice changed to "agua" voice n yet, i cant take mc, cuz need to rush for the jobs.

anyway, i'm quite enjoyed wat i'm doing, for editing, is glad tat i can edit with the director of Sell Out for an event video of Time Dot Com, to come out a better or almost perfect video (atleast it's not some corporate video nor simple montage commercial).. =) for my online business, i'm surprise tat almost everyone support me, n getting wishes tat i'll b success in this area. =)

MacBook Pro 17" that company rent for my video playback for Kancil event, this laptop is awesome, touchpad is like iphone, can do scrolling, zoom in n out, etc, but it's too sensitive until i screwed up some video playback.. >_<

b4 event start, let's take a photo first.. with macbook pro

the next day was my bazaar, mm.. the business so so, reason was not many ppl in 3 two square but i stil able to cover my cost.. =)

really thanks for those who came n visit my stall, shelly, jin sun, my sis, esther and kb, most of all, my mum whom help me a lot since i started my business..

Sepet

2009-10-21T11:34:00.004+08:00

i love Yasmin Ahmad's commercial, it's inspiring and though provoking, everyone loves it, but tis movie Sepet, is the first movie i ever rate it "not pass", 2/5. i know it got many award, and the story is good but the edit and the acting except the 2 main roles spoiled the movie, how sad~

* shame on myself, watch tis after 3 years released

Bad Attitude

2009-10-21T11:13:00.006+08:00

the attitude is

lazy and sleepy;

only music,

work of others inspired the editor;

that is me,

the freaking lazy creature.

A Worth of Sacrifice

2009-10-07T15:12:00.003+08:00

tis video really touched me and remind me once again, His Salvation. the greatest blessing of all. n now wat else shld i complain bout my life after all He has done

the "best part" is all these passengers didn even know they were saved.

How Long Can I Be Good

2009-10-06T18:23:00.004+08:00

feel like giving up, but is ridiculous for only 2 weeks. how much have i tried? but giving up early is better than lose until no ending rite??

sometimes i just wonder why He dun wanna bless me, i knew He blessed me a lot in other area of my life, but i stil haven get the thing that have been asking long time ago, y am i stil lost here. and i so wonder how long shld i stil remain faithful n discipline myself, just to please Him.

putting Him in 1st priority??? tel me how long can i do tis if i stil haven get wat i wan when i put Him first.. sometimes is just unfair..

Accident

2009-10-01T17:34:00.003+08:00

a very good movie, good story, good editing, nice color n probably good directing to make everything flowing smoothly..

a kind of story tat i never watch b4, special, and nice ending.. make me feel like it's like final destination but tis is an human make final destination, overall flow is very nice, almost perfect in terms of the silence, slowness, speechlessness, and climax, all tells the story..

as kb said, it's looks like Johnie To's movie, but he was half correct, it's Pou-Soi Cheang's movie, producer is Johnnie To.

as conclusion, an unexpected movie

* may b there're movies like tis but i nvr watch b4

** for those who doesn understand, then better watch again, if not, wasted, or else, dun watch.. =p

*** Rate: 4/5

New Experience

2009-09-24T22:35:00.004+08:00

previously i was stil making my decision, should i start this (read more: Decision Making).. and now i've made decided to do, which is online boutique, i've done research for 2 months, seeing how people do, then only realize there are a lot of people doing this, so does it mean it's a very easy things to do? and yet, people nowadays in malaysia stil not so trust in internet purchase especially clothing..

anyway, i've already started, atfirst i really have not much confident to do it, cuz so many people doing it and i nvr do any business before, but i really thank God that people around me has been so supportive n helpful in my (small) business..

here are the links:
grazioso facebook
grazioso blogspot

Holidays

2009-09-23T17:20:00.007+08:00

should write wat had happen for the past few days which was the holiday..

on sun (20sept), i went to my secondary school fren's wedding, honestly, it wasn't an very impressive wedding dinner/ceremony to me, compare to those wedding tat i've been to. but it was a great gathering i had wit my secondary school frens..

i realize i have changed, i guess same goes to all my frens, after 8 years, we surely have changed in term of personality, becoming more mature is definitely. but i realize even my character has changed a bit, i used to be very talkative, crazy, sociable, etc. i didn really remember until one of my fren said:

"huey en, u have full of crazy idea, let's think of the ways to fool the "heng dai", i rmb last time u always fool me wan.. haha!!" when my frens was preparing stuff to fool the heng dai

anyway, congratz to jennifer!

on mon (21st sept), first holiday, i went out wit kb, spent an half day wit him then went to hospital, visited andrew's father, he is in critical condition right now, besides tat, even andrew n his family are also facing a serious situation of decision making, whether they should continue sustain his father's life or not for the expenses are very heavy, so now everything has to depend on God's will, n trust on God for the decision, let Him provide everything n control everything..

on tues (22nd sept), 2nd holiday, i wasn going anywhere, how clever was i, cuz i need to clean up my study room which i wanted to do since early of the year but always no time n kept messing up the room by adding all the stuff on table n floor.. i should have take a photo of my messy room, a before and after photo, anyway, i stil haven finish cleaning up cuz at night i went out wit kb to "complete" our date of previous day.. =p

Cooking+HoliDay

2009-09-02T12:11:00.010+08:00

i complaint to kb tat y didn he do something like cooking, making something,etc for me, like how someone else do something to pursue a gal (i always complain) =p so he decided to cook spaghetti at merdeka holiday (as he said, he is not good at making romantic stuff n only know how to cook
spaghetti)

so we went to mid valley to buy some ingredient, i did prepare something for this meal as well which is
drinks, to be part of it..

kb's ingredient for his spaghetti

n these r mine! looks like i got more ingredient than his, but actually not, i just didn take the pic..

so yong sui.. btw, his house got big kitchen, now i know y i always heard those housewife keen to have big kitchen, instead of big bed room

Finally, the food is ready..

the spaghetti (mince beef + pepper chicken sausage + crab stick) and yogurt vege juice (celery + broccoli + lemon)

another drinks: apple strawberry yogurt

alrite, is time to eat.. (have to, cuz he started eating dy, no more taking pic, aiks!)

loving watever he does as a gal fren is not my style cuz i like to "teng" him wan, but nvr deny, his spaghetti really nice, taste ngam ngam.. yum~ too bad, he doesn like my vege yogurt very much cuz too healthy, tasted weird to him.. -_- but he accepted the apple strawberry yogurt.. wat the.. anyway, i really enjoy cooking n eating wit him..

* monkey has changed to kb (kenny bear), in case he really become real monkey.. =p

** his mum love the vege yogurt cuz it's very healthy.. kakakka!!

I'm Transparent

2009-08-31T00:21:00.003+08:00

i dun usually gossip or talk bad about people in my blog, but some one is testing my patience n level of forgiveness, i've been "forgiving" him (yes, is him) since 7-8 years ago, i'm proud of myself cuz i didn gila infront of him, behaving immature infront of him, scold him (as i did b4 to my fren during my secondary school =p) or leave the church for wat he has been behaving..
for some reason, he wont communicate wit me, except some information he needs to give, my existence is transparent, watever happen, he wil talk or discuss wit everyone except me, n when i talk, he ignore, as if like "do watever u wan la".. wat more bout making decision, if the decision relate to me, so wat? he maDe the decision, n INFORM me, opps! he didn even inform me, he just do watever he wan, cuz i'm transparent..

bcm student (the "loohur"), i'm better than u, cuz i treat u as how i treat other ppl, cuz i'm (trying my best) forgiving u no matter wat u've done, cuz my focus is in God's work but u? i dun wanna judge u as i'm not allowed, please forgive me for wat i've done tat might cause u behaving like tis..

i love u cuz God says "love your enemy"..

* i'm sorry for the post, but tis wat i've been facing in my life, dun ask me to approach him, i approached him n times, outcome is he said nothing woh..
** pray for us..

Decision Making

2009-08-14T12:03:00.003+08:00

i'm so excited about the decision tat i'm going to make, cant tell now until i officially start (or may b not starting).. i really hope i can do it n is wat i capable of, n now i'm preparing everything, hope it wil b smooth, n most of all, hope tis is God's will and He wil b wit me n guide me..

* i thank my sis n my mum n my monkey whom supporting me tis..

BSB 2: Same or Change

2009-08-14T11:50:00.002+08:00

the reason of blogging for the sake of blogging (bsb) is bcuz monkey asked me y didn i write blog.. mm.. cuz i'm lazy to write n i'm not inspired to write anything.. =p

let's talk bout my situation now, now is morning, sitting infront of computer, looking out the window, ah~ another day, ppl tend to complain or sighing tat everyday is a routine day, everyday doing the same thing, sounded boring.. i guess they bored of their job or bored of their studies, or stil figuring out wat is their dream/ambition tat's y no vision nor target to archive.. last week i was inspired by a thought (or could b God spoken to me?),

when i woke up,

everything is still the same, nothing is changed

my room, my body, n even the smell around me..

walking out of my room, my parent still the same,

they r doing morning routine work..

"coming back for dinner tonite?" mum asked

when i get ready to work,

have to choose wat cloth to wear, how i wish my office provide uniform,

then heading to same company, waiting for same job..

everything remain as usual, i'm still having all my life n love one,

they are still alive, n healthy

i'm not unemployed, i stil can earn for my living..

how many ppl out there r homeless..

how many ppl's life has changed suddenly due to disaster or accident..

i believe God will bless me n my future, and i just do my best for everything

i dun expect tis kinda "change" but i chose to appreciate them n b contended.

is good to remain the same in certain area..

God still Cares

2009-07-21T14:09:00.003+08:00

tis morning i was a bit emo, something in my mind, something frustrating, something tat came to my mind more than once, something tat makes me questioned God more than once.. lazy to write wat is it, may b wat i can do now is wait..

once i step into my office room, it start raining, a heavy rain, and i didn get wet at all cuz it all happen after i enter into my office, i was thinking or God spoke to me tat:

God is stil care, for everything n even little thing..

the view from my room looking out from the window..

God Bless the Faithful One

2009-07-20T13:32:00.013+08:00

normally i dun write others' bday in my blog except mine but tis time i have to write something bout her for wat my sis has done, n how God prepared everything for her..

today is my mum's bday, as usual, we either go for fine dining or giving her present.. for my dad's convenience, we went to The Ship at KL, which is near my dad's shop.. abnormally, the road to KL from our hse was SMOOTH, not congested at all, we reached there within half an hour.. my sis was amazed why the road so smooth, normally tis period (after work) is very congested then my sis said, "God really bless those who r faithful.." God prepared the way for my mum's bday dinner..

err.. dun ask me y my mum smile like tis, i've no idea..

the food was good, everyone enjoyed their meal.. tis restaurant has existed for ages, i can see they didn do any renovation to modernize the place, it's classic, i prefer like tis, just remain as it is wil b nice..

i didn take my dad's pic which is looking at the camera, but only eating.. =p

after dinner, we went n see my dad's shop, since we were there dy and we nvr been there b4.. there's a story to talk bout my dad's business but i lazy to write it, n better not to write, if not i'll be caught by ISA, oops!

my sis suggested to buy bday cake for my mum (here, i need to acknowledge her, she is a very family-minded person, she care for family a lot, she wil think of ways to show appreciation to her family) then i suggested a cake shop which has very nice cake at Taman Desa, the shops there always congested with cars and human, is hardly even to do double parking or just simply drive across the road, so again abnormally, we found a parking just slightly infront of the shop.. God prepared a parking for my mum's bday cake..

ok, the best part is here, after we went back home, her good daughter (older one) suggest to play guitar for her bday (oh my gosh..) so she find chords n play..

i think she was praying..

one "fei cai", still wan mother to serve.. keke..

A Day Trip with Monkey

2009-07-17T14:46:00.002+08:00

tis is the day which me n monkey long waited for, we nvr really spend a day together for some vacation, either wit frens or just a while spending together at home or shopping/movie.. so we decided to take a leave on july but ended up only me taking leave bcuz he is now holiday, waiting for new job..

on the way..

we went to KLCC Aquarium, mm.. not really impressive, cuz not many variety fishes nor any underwater species and a very small "underwater world", which can finish seeing it within half an hour, but we spent more than tat, cuz we kept taking pictures of those fishes with my dslr..

the aquarium and underwater world

the shark and the shark egg (yee~~)

the huge fish (dunno wat is it called) and the nemo and the weirdo

we just spent 2hr++ in klcc, then we headed to sg wang cuz monkey wanna see robot then we went to pavillion The Loaf which is my fav hang out place cuz i like the uhu uhu (not sure if it's called) there..

last hang out place was not wat i expected, which is church.. i didn plan to go to prayer meeting, cuz i tot it wil b very rush for us, n honestly i wanna skip prayer meeting (only tis week) to spend my whole day wit him.. =p we manage to go home at around 6pm so monkey said we shld go since we got time, we shldn skip, i was like.... err.. ok lo.. he said tis is wat i said b4, "we shldn skip prayer meeting" i was thinking, "skip tis week only mer..." anyway, i respect and admire wat was in his mind..

at old town kopitiam..

* we stil continue hang out together after prayer meeting, we went yam cha nearby my hse

** i really enjoyed being wit him..

How To Choose Life

2009-07-14T17:51:00.005+08:00

some interesting article found in fb...

How To Choose Life

Choosing the person you will marry is just that- a choice. Some men and women feel they were swept off their feet by a rush of romantic love, true. But beneath all the emotions and all the thrills of knowing someone is crazy about you, there is still your will to decide. This section of our series, Choosing For Life, will help you make a wise decision, not just an emotional one. (read more..)

and btw, today is my half year togetherness wit monkey, time pass really fast, but "half year" stil sound short to me, we seems like being together for very long, is tat good or bad? mm... i stil enjoyed being together wit him, ppl tend to say couple is only sweet for first 3 months, for us, we had argument, but at the same time we knew each other more, and we still appreciate each other.. there's no "3 months period" in tis relationship..

miss and regret

2009-07-07T13:39:00.007+08:00

after 4 months of t'gger's death, i cant imagine i stil miss him..

i'm too bored, i read blogs and see others' fb pictures, i saw some pictures bout ur agreement btw u as an owner and ur dog, how u take care of it since u decided to brought it back.. tis reminded me of t'gger, so i read my post bout t'gger once again, when i read it, my tears drop.. i miss him n regret for not spending more time wit him at least b4 he died..

* i know we shld look forward and not look back, but is not wrong to miss our beloved rite?

** i feel like touching u again, t'gger, how many times i have dream bout u..

Busy With God

2009-06-30T11:40:00.007+08:00

recently quite bz (which is good) for 2 jobs, 1 of it have to sit in wit director most of the time during edit.. at first was quite nervous, cuz the director looks very experienced, setting high requirement and he said he expect good quality work during first brief, not cheap cheap wan, then he shown us his showreel, after seeing his reels, we were like........ err... anyway, not to judge his work here..

so after working wit him, he is fine in person, n we were cooperating well, job was approved n today wil b doing audio final mix..

and another job is web commercial, the agency actually a bit fuzzy, but so far everything was fine, not much changes after first preview, client was easy going, she leave it to our expertise..

all i wanna say is God has been watching over my career, i know recently some of the things i did wasn pleasing God, and i was thinking if He stil listen to my prayer, but i didn care so much, i know i need Him, no matter how, i'll pray n leave it to God.. i prayed to b like Joseph (Gen 39), i need God's presence wit me, n everything wil b prospered wit His presence..

"casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you" 1 Peter 5:7

Transformer 2: The Fallen of Revenge

2009-06-28T13:52:00.000+08:00

again i'll say, it's an awesome movie, but tis time i didn feel like clapping hand (like when i watch Transformer 1) cuz i expected it's awesome, very nice cg, more robot and transformation, watch until my chin dropped..

* gonna watch again wit monkey, if he wants cuz he went mission trip when i was watching it wit church frens..

Fireproof

2009-06-27T13:19:00.000+08:00

a very nice christian movie, about a relationship tat involve God, seriously, not boring, worth watching..

"fireproof doesn't prove that fire will never come, but when fire comes, you will be able to withstand it" Fireproof

26th June 2009

2009-06-26T12:10:00.007+08:00

1 year ago, i went mission trip, but not going tis year, n tat time i told monkey how was the mission trip as he asked me and he wasn a christian yet.. we didn know each other well, we were just chatting over facebook ONLY.. btw, we were not knowing other thru facebook, but was thru a lunch wit colleague and x colleague..

and now he is christian and going mission trip tis year.. life can b so diff after some time, tat can b expected or nvr imagined..

and today, something shocking me, which is the death of Michael Jackson, i heard the news from radio, i was like.. huh? again? wat? admitted to hospital only izit? tis is wat he always do.. i kept myself like nothing happen, didn bother the news, may b i heard wrongly, until i read many status of frens in fb, something like

"mj, rip.."

"the king of pop, we'll always rmb u.."

and bla bla bla..

then only i admit to myself tat the legend is gone..

honestly, my first impression was on those ppl who post the status, r u really appreciate him ~~before~~? do u really like him ~~before~~? he is ur idol ~~before~~??? all i know is ppl have been talking bad about him, his surgery, his abuse toward his kids and so on when he was alive, and y now only the ppl showing passion or appreciation toward him?? i dunno, may b ppl really like him but was the media tat creating news bout his bad and now the media showing condolence toward him, bringing up his history, his music, his glory, make ppl feel tat wat an awesome celebrity has gone.. hypocrite..

i'm not mj fans, dunno how to appreciate his work, but nvr deny he is very famous, a history maker in my life, like Alvin Presley, Audrey Hepburn, etc but they were died b4 even i was born, so anyhow, mj is someone existing in my life, bringing influence in the ppl around me and now he his gone..

i like few songs of if him,

Black and White

You are Not Alone

We are the World

according to Gary Chao, he said mj was a person tat concern the world peace, tat's y most of his songs r positive, encouraging ppl to make peace, if tis is true, i appreciate tis legend tat doing something which reversing wat ppl doing nowadays..

probably he is alone now....

Earth

2009-05-31T12:18:00.000+08:00

tis is an awesome movie! it's a documentary type of movie, story of real life of animals struggling to survive, etc.. according to Michelle, they shot it for 2 years, from the footage, then only they make up a story of all tis creatures.. it's awesome is bcuz well shooting, very nice shots, can see how those nature around us been transformed due to the seasons n how tis diff creatures adapt and survive in their environment.. when i see their making, i was lagi impressed, shots in many diff type of camera, they risked their for the shots, thumb up! wat a sincere work they've done and the sound is nice, nice ambient captured and nice music and nice script/naration, i wonder if they've used disney cartoon music for tis movie for the shots of cub, ya, those cute little cub, very cute~~

check out the website for trailer and making:

Earth

Back To Melaka

2009-05-29T12:19:00.008+08:00

went to Melaka yest for my dad's shop opening..

when we reach there, look around, then only realize it's not opening yet, it was just open for outsider to try singing.. we purposely took leave just to support my dad for his shop opening, mana tau.... -_-"" it wil b launched officially next month..

tis is the only pic i took in his shop, a karaoke shop for senior adult, it's something new in melaka but not in kl..

for some reason, me n family didn really support my dad when we knew tat he is going to do such business wit relative but when i seen his shop, n roughly know wat he is doing, mm.. i hope he'll do well in his business..

oh btw, melaka food is awesome!!! so nice, almost all the food tat we ate was tasty, not like kl, sux!! kl food expensive n not sincere at all, simply make some food n sell it, if they sell it in melaka, they sure no business, sou dong la!! n now i'm kinda familiar wit melaka dy, can hunt food there.. ^^

cuz i know the way back so i drove back home, n bcuz of tat, some memorable thing was happen, i broke my record, i speed 140-150/km, not i wanted to but i was "authorized" to drive fast cuz we my dad need to rush back to take back our wira from car repair shop.. my sis whispered to me:

"你就好啦，奉旨驾快车.."

(good la u, u r authorized to drive fast)

normally we cant drive too fast n over the speed limit, if not, we gotta pay saman, but now if i kena, my dad gonna pay it, cuz he asked me to drive fast wat.. >=)

actually i was very tension to drive so fast, my family's life is in my hand, i dun wan anything happen, somemore recently i seen a lot of car accident, dunno y, roughly about 4 times a week.. so 140/km is enuf..

Woman => Man => Pregnant

2009-05-25T16:35:00.009+08:00

~~a man~~ a woman turned to b a man then got pregnant wit his "remaining female body".. lazy to write bout his story, u can read it here:

He’s Pregnant. You’re Speechless

or watch his interview here:

Journey Of A Pregnant Man

to God, homosexual is wrong..

i lazy to give any comment here as a christian or personal point of view, cuz i myself also having a question tat why could a man born to have mind set thinking that he shld b a female but instead, he is having a male body or vice versa.. i hope someone could explain to me in a biblical way..

putting aside christianity way of thinking on tis issue, it's actually also against nature law, isnt it?? how would their child address them then?? mama and mama or baba and baba?? like tis issue of thomas, they decided 1 of them shld b a male, which means their instinct telling them tat a relationship should be involving 1 female and 1 male?? then y would they fell in love in a same gender? just bcuz they thought their mind is not compatible wit their body?? i pity wat their mind is thinking..

Ikea Trip

2009-05-24T12:15:00.006+08:00

after dinner, we yam cha/dinner at Ikea restaurant, chit chat and joke until they close then we walk around furniture area, the stuff there really inspired us to take pic, so we kinda crazy a bit to take some of the pic wit our hp since it's closing, not many ppl left in ikea..

long time didn do crazy thing like tis, may b i'm old dy, lazy n not inspired to do so.. but is fun not to b serious (i think i'm always serious or getting serious in life or... watever, just lazy~~)

* i went yam cha wit sis, esther n amelia, i was stil hesitating to join them cuz i was kinda lazy to go out, i'll rather stay at home but i hardly go out wit them except going to church n didn join them badminton so i follow them la..

Heroes

2009-05-22T14:15:00.006+08:00

finally i have finished Heroes.. mm.. not completely finish, cuz there's new season, season 4 just came out..>_<.. i was really outdated tat i didn know anything bout Heroes as an editor.. -_- so my head encouraged me to watch more movies, as well as heroes..

heroes is a very nice movie, no regret watching it, nice story, nice vfx but editing.. mm.. ok la, it's good edit is bcuz of the story line, shld b thumb up to the director/producer - Tim Kring. i feel tat heroes is kinda christianity, ppl given ability is like christian who is given spiritual gift which used to serve God and His ppl.. ppl who doesn have ability involved in saving the world is considered saved the world, christians who do their part but not in leadership role is considered serving God, involving in God plan.. aha! interesting..

Heroes has company,

christian has God;

Heroes need to face death still,

christian gain life after death;

"save the cheerleader, save the world" says Heroes

"touching heaven, changing earth" says Hillsong

Blogged Too Much??

2009-05-22T13:21:00.006+08:00

due to my "freeness", not to say where, cuz is in office *whispering* nor shld i say wat i usually do when i'm free, cuz i'm suppose to b working *whispering* i check out ppl's blog, fren's blog and fren's fren's blog.. (1 of d things i do).. purpose of blogging is to let ppl read and know wat u r doing and ur current condition or watever, so i think i'm alrite to check out (kepohchi) other's blog.. =p

mostly ppl write where they went, n wat they did, telling ppl how happening is their life, (so do i..=p), but some type of blogging i have read is kinda capture my curiosity which is their relationship, they tend to write how much they love their bf/gf, wat have they been thru, so on and so forth (SO DO I..>=p but not as much as them for some reason), bcuz of my curiosity, i'm kinda updated wit tis ppl relationship, i wonder wat if they broke up, how r they going to manage their blog especially if they found new gf/bf?? do they need to delete all the previous posts bout their ex?? or open new acc??

in fact, there's a guy used to write so much bout he n his gf, they seriously committed to each other, about how is their life b4 and after meeting each other.. but now, they broke up, n now he has new gf, with "new topic".. hmm.. do we have to b so committed to a relationship or do we have to b so committed blogging bout our relationship?

for me, i'm not sure if i'll b wit him in future (forever), althou i really hope so but we do not know how is our future, i hope i can write bout the same person today, tmr and the rest of my days..

is him, (first pic of him which taken by me.. )

~kenny leong the monkey~

n now, he has new nic from me, which is...

=>>> KENNY BEAR

kakakaka!!!!

* those frens who blog pls dun block nor avoid me, i'll only check out blog when i'm free, i dun purposely check out ppl's blog.. =p

** i wonder shld i let many ppl know my blog, i didn intended to let ppl know bout me when i started my blog since.... long long time ago in an "hidden place" cuz my purpose of blogging tat time was just to express out my thought..

Real Photo is re-appeared

2009-05-13T15:51:00.004+08:00

besides printing flyers for church youth event, tis is the first time printing out my "master piece", due to the advance of technology, not many ppl wil develop their photos as hard copy like wat we did last time, cuz nowadays we can upload to internet and chances of "showing off" is higher..

my aunt is going oversea for vacation, she wil b seeing some of her relative there, so she asked me to print out some photos of me n my family including some photos tat taken during mother's day, so tat she can show them who we are.. yes, we nvr see each other b4, except my dad, i think atleast they met b4 during my parent's wedding.. -_-"

kinda proud of myself for wat i've taken.. keke.. i purposely printed out 1 of the vietnam pic, see how does it look like in hard copy.. the result is... not bad~~

tis is the soft copy, it came out better than wat i expected when i see the printed one..

Something I Shld Know??

2009-05-12T17:46:00.005+08:00

1 of my bro has been missing in action (MIA), didn come to church since last week due to his own personal prob.. i'm not youth leader (anymore..) but i just have the urge to reach out to him, yet i do not have much idea of wat shld i say cuz i dunno the whole issue bhind it.. so i just encouraged him wit wat i shld say (tat i think i shld say) over fb and email.. posting tis not only for him but for those who are doing the same as him.. here it goes..

xxx,

i dunno wat happen to u, and i dunno y i feel tat i need to share with u something,

when my sis was very young, she was very active (may b hyperactive, not surprise), kinda hard to control, even in church, my mum didn wan my sis kacau other ppl in church, so she decided not to go to church anymore, she tot may b when my sis grow up then only cont going to church. after some while, my aunt visited my mum, asking y she didn come to church anymore, after my mum explain, my aunt said tat my mum shldn skip church bcuz of tat, they can pray for my sis, once my aunt explained to my mum, suddenly my mum was like realized something and has been awakened. so from tat time, my mum nvr skip church since tat incident.

if my aunt didn visit my mum or my mum stil dun wanna come to church, where wil b me n my sis? bcuz my mum back to church, the whole family is serving God n church rite now and being a faithful christian, bcuz of tat, God's blessing is overflowing in our family like a river.

i wan u to come back to God, commit ur problem to God and let us pray for u, u shld be the light in ur community who reach out to God and the ppl in need, u shld b the one tat encourage ppl who has fell down cuz u know who is Love, where can we put our hope to and who is our source of everything, and tis is wat i see in u all tis while.

i dunno how serious ur case/problem is, or the problem of others, until u wanna skip ur church? or even wanna let go christianity? bcuz of God's love, u r given the privilege to choose watever u wan, but i tell u, u r not afford to lose God.
atleast 1 month ago when i see u, u were so on fire, but now u look so upset n discouraged. why? shld it be the way?

everything wil come to past xxx, dun run away from God if u did, i wan u to cont do wat God wants u to do, be perseverance and receive the blessing He has for u, most importantly, ur salvation.

God loves u and
He really does..

Y Yan..

* i used to have such mind set which is letting go my relationship wit God, due to some problem happen to me which i think is not fair to me, but at the end, i didn dare to do it, cuz i cant afford to lose Him, i'm nothing without Him - My Lord..

** pls pray for him..

Mother's Day 2009

2009-05-12T16:31:00.006+08:00

this year celebrated mother's day without my dad, first time ever in my life.. he cant have dinner until very late cuz he need to check some account, dun ask me wat account, i didn know n nvr find out.. but my sis suddenly got call from office need to work, so we had to go out late, he can't wait so didn join us.. i wonder y he need to check on this very day? cant he arrange it for some other day?? may b really cannot.. =/ i dun mind he's been very bz recently, but not on mother's day nor any occasion.... if can..

alrite, we stil go on according to our plan, we went to Akari, Mont Kiara Solarist, it's japanese food... the food there was very nice and not tat expensive, the bill was rm130++ for 4 of us, including my aunt..

tis r the foods..

and the rest of the food, didn captured nicely so didn upload..

the best part of tis photo is taken by my mum, can see from reflection showing tat my mum using dslr weh.. kakaka..

Akari

A Date

2009-04-23T11:40:00.006+08:00

i'm so 幸福 tat i no need to drive to office yest, monkey fetch me, cuz we going out for date at nite (as usual), i dun wanna drive back home so late after date, so we decided he fetch me to office, it was a lovely morning i had..

the lovely moment is not end yet, at nite we had dinner and shopping at one u, we joke, we tease at each other, even we got nothing to say, but the moment is so sweet n short, n out of no reason or may b there is but we dunno, we miss each other a lot..

when we on our way back, his tire punctured, actually was more than punctured, it's cracked at the side (not sure if it's the rite word), it's spoiled badly.. so we stopped n changed the tire, we didn panic, we figure out how those tools work, thank God there was a taxi driver passby n help us to use the tool, within 1/2 hr, we changed the tire.. mm.. i was proud of myself cuz i help changing tire, i didn stand there, as wat a gal shld do? i did help n we work things together.. i think tis is considered sweet moment.. (romantic as well? yeah rite, just the beginning, i cant imagine if tis happen a lot, i'll stil think is romantic..=p)

n i did admire him cuz he didn show temper nor angry nor something, everything happen calmly.. =)

after tat, we went back to his hse n spent the rest of the time together, n tis was our date yest, to me, it's sweet n memorable..

i seen you under the bright sky

leave ur smell on me until i see you tonight

a kiss of us not to say goodbye

but a promise of returning back to your side

* i love you baby monkey..

My Burday 2009

2009-04-17T14:11:00.015+08:00

finally the photos are ready, as usual, have to write something bout my bday.. i celebrated wit family at Tamarind on the actual day (8/4), oww~~ it is a very fine dining place, serving italian food at downstair and thai food at upstair, we chose italian food..

Tamarind at Ampang

the kitchen and dining place..

starter: tasty bread n cord fish

main dishes

finally, my dessert, specially customized for me, requested by sis..

take some photos..

with nice environment

ppl expecting i'll b celebrating my bday wit my love one for the very first time, instead, we celebrate it the next day, at The Curve..

didn take many photos... =p

* worse thing happen on tat day, i forgotten to bring my dslr, even the compact camera i didn bring.. wat a waste!!

** thanks to my sis, tat she purposely went and find the place location without me, so that she can give me little surprise tat how beautiful is the place..

*** thanks to my monkey for buying me another bracelet to replace the one tat he bought for my valentine which i lost it.. =p i'm not gonna lost it again, cuz it's precious to me tat i can wear his gift to me.. n i'm gonna find the lost one if can..

3 Months

2009-04-14T11:55:00.008+08:00

3 months dy, how come sounds like very short n i feel it's been long time dy..?? how i wish we have been together very long dy..

i like the way he calls me, especially "sweet honey pie", (it may sounds goose bump =p) i nvr heard such nic b4, so sweet.. how u call a person shows wat is the position of tat person in ur heart..

i like to argue wit him (anyway, to me, tat's not considered as argument, is sort like merajuk), may b tat time is the moment we express out our heart out deeply, is tis considered childish? watever, may b.. =p

i have so much "wants" from him, everytime when i didn get wat i want, i'll b very upset, all the while i tot i'm a mature person, but when come to relationship, i have a hot temper to manage it..

oh~ 3 months... only..

* anyway, monkey i love u..

Easter Day

2009-04-12T12:31:00.001+08:00

rmb Him tat He sacrificed for our sins,

and we gain the eternal life;

no one can find His body after His death,

bcuz He has risen from the dead;

wat else can we do for such amazing love?

come to Him and put ur trust in Him.

our God, our Lord, our hope..

* rmb not egg nor bunny tat we wanna celebrate..

8484 (2009)

2009-04-08T12:23:00.006+08:00

i like my bday, make me feel tat i'm so special, 8484 (8 april 1984)..

yest nite my sis ask me wat is my bday wish, wat first came to my mind was my material need and my career, may b i shld tell her all my prayer request.. so i didn really answer her, i said

"dunno woh"

sis: "世界和平(world peace)?"

me: "dun have woh, i nvr tot of any bday wish.."

sis: "how come u dun have dream? to make u pursue it?"

cuz i know i can get watever i need from God, so i dun have to make any wish, i just pray to God.. may b sis is rite, if i'm asked to make a wish, i wish world wil b peaceful, no more sins nor wicked nor selfish happen around.. n i pray tat my family including monkey is safe n healthy..

* anyway, i do have my list (so far):

- Hyundai I-10

- Nokia E61i/iPod

- MAC Book/MAC Book Pro

- Sigma 17-70mm F2.8/Canon 17-40mm F2.8

- Canon flash

- camera bag

- a new spec

- a new closet

i'm gonna get all tis soon... >=)

Learned Something.. (new)

2009-04-03T11:58:00.004+08:00

not really something new, but something has to be noted for my work (i know most of the ppl know it n doing it).. thank God that my recent job has gone smoothly so far thou haven approve n give final master.. i'm not a very good in communication especially speaking in english, but when i present my work, something has to b sure in order to avoid many unnecessary changes and affect my performance and work flow (eventhou i'm not good in communication but tis help.. i think):

1. always b sure wat i have and wat i dun have in terms of material (footage, stills, music and etc)

2. knowing and always prepare the reasons for wat i've done, in case client ask why is tis like tis, and not like tat

3. always rmb all the footages, it does help to explain n persuade the client tat tis is the best i've edited.. for event video, know well about their event, insert all the happening/important shots as many as i have

4. lastly, experience help knowing the temper of client

* i started loving my career, not to say i dun like last time but kinda lost, not sure if it's suitable for me.. however, the more i worked, the more movies/video i've seen, the more i like my career..

I'm Protected

2009-04-02T18:50:00.002+08:00

when i was entering my office room tis morning, i saw broken glasses all over the floor..

"who broke my room glass? it's window glass? someone broke in??" thinking in my heart..

but the window glass is stil fine, then i traced the glasses, it was from the picture tat hang on the wall which is infront of my desk, it fell off! it's kinda big pic covered wit glass thou.. the hanger was broken, tat's y the picture fell down, i really wonder y tis pic suddenly drop which was hanging there all the while..

michelle told me, luckily it fell down at the mid might or when i was not around, if not i'll kena the glass when it fell down, cuz the glass flew everywhere even on the desk.. but i know is bcuz of God, He protects me from the glass, there is no luck in life, i've been praying for His protection over me n my family's life..

b4 tis incident, i was thinking things n ppl around me, i felt tat i'm so blessed, i cant list down all the blessing here but i know God has been pouring out His blessing over me, my family, my career, my relationship, my life n so on.. to non-christian, they wil b seeing tis as luck, "i am a lucky gal, receiving blessing without putting much effort" in chinese is 红运当头, but i'll say not by wat i've done, it's by God's grace, i am who n where i am now..

smsssss

2009-03-21T00:36:00.005+08:00

i'm stil waiting for his msg (at midnight),
i wonder y at tis hour, i still receiving smssss from diff ppl when i'm suppose to receive msg from him..
so weird...

Mum Still Missing T'gger

2009-03-21T00:30:00.002+08:00

during yam cha, suddenly talking about t'gger cuz my mum wants t'gger's photo after she saw her hp wit t'gger as wallpaper.. so i shown her t'gger's pic over fb, she said t'gger is very cute when he was healthy, no skin prob.. after showing her 1st album, she said enuf, dun wanna see.. ya, i know y, i can feel she is missing t'gger, she "mm seh dek", she indeed loves t'gger..

Wrong Timing

2009-03-21T00:18:00.005+08:00

平常工作时间没工做，闲得要命，
周末来了，有工做，真无聊!
为什么工作都不在周日(正常工作时间)有呢，没什么要在周末才有得做,浪费我的时间!
也不是谁的错，问题是人在周末的时候才得空，所以一些event周末才进行
hai~

Personality Test

2009-03-12T13:56:00.002+08:00

i was tagged by michelle in fb, she did a personally test, so i did it oso, it's kinda accurate..

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.